Friday, May 28, 2010


It's end of May, middle of the year. Wow.. Time pass fast.
Happy Wesak Day to all buddish in Malaysia.. I'm working today while lots of other companies are close. Hmmm.. Holiday mood.

I'd copied this from, just have a read on what Wesak Day means.

Wesak Day is the most important festivals of the Buddhists in Malaysia and fall in the month of May. It is celebrated to commemorate the birth, enlightenment and death of Lord Buddha because according to Buddhists, all the three events took place on the same lunar date. The celebration for the Wesak day begins much before the dawn when the Buddhists gather in Buddhist temples for worship all over Malaysia. The celebration is done with prayers, chants, offerings and giving alms. The Buddhist eat a vegetarian diet prior to the festival in order to cleanse and purify themselves. Doves and tortoises are released on the Wesak Day as a symbolic gesture of releasing the soul and giving up the past sins. Free meals are also given to the needy on the Wesak Day.



Another big celebration and holiday for Sabahan in May is Kaamatan Festival. It will be next two days so just take this opportunity to wish all Sabahan Kotobian Tadau Kaamatan.

Just my silly advice, since Kamaatan always related to local alchohol drink with the word "Logop", "Kogutan", "Kalapik", "Aramai tii" which all are relate to the meaning of get drunk, just want to say that eventhough its already culture since long time ago but don't drink too much & get drunk till sleep at the road side or sleep next to the vomit. Why I'm saying that way is also because Sabahan from a certain district always been 'chop' a good drinker. What I mean here is, people ever asked me,
"Where are you come from?"
"Oh kalau Ranau mustahil tidak bulih kasi habis. Minum minum minum.. Bulih itu kalo orang Ranau."
and keep on refill my glass. You see that perception, I'm tired of it. Not everyone from Ranau can drink & for those heavy drinkers, show some positive attitude to make others stop judge us in negative way. I don't know, may be some people proud to be call as a good drinker?
Boring me huh? Minum pun kana marah. xoxo.. It's not good for health ba especially the unfiltered local alchohol.. Just be grateful & thankful for the harvested product on Harvest Festival & continue for the hardwork for next planting season. & I'm wonder will I wear this type of costume some day? xoxo..

It's Rungus traditional costume, colorful.. ^_^

Proud to be Sabahan.

Thursday, May 27, 2010


Look at this thing, cute eh?

My sis requested me to bought it for her. Original price was RM15.

There is zip at the back, and it actually is a pencil case.
It's cute but I want to tell you that I just feel like to hit my head everytime I think about this.

As I said, the original price is RM15. I saw a sign wroten 2 for RM20.
Hmm ok.. I chose 2 and went straight to the counter.

"Miss, ambil 1 lagi RM20.."
"Sana tulis RM20 dua tu.."
"RM20 untuk tiga. Miss ambil satu lagi lah.."
"Oh.. Kalau gitu saya ambil satu saja lah. Saya nampak sana tulis RM20 dua."


Confident but I was blured,
paid & went home but not satisfied,
keep complaining to myself about the sign & the shop was cheating,
they didn't practice what they'd stated,
until I realize how stupid I was 3 hours later.
Yes it wroten there 2 for RM 20 but doesn't 3 for RM20 is better?
OMG.. I'd rejected better offers & argued with the salesgirl some more. So embarrassing.
Since when I failed in shopping & mathematic so stupidly?
I think I'm going to hang myself like this.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010


Another changes again? xoxo.. Well more things will change on me within this year but I'm starting to loving it.
Since status has changed, lot of things have to think more deeper and have to consider my other half for most of the time. Even a simple thing like, I'm going back to my hometown, I have to consider to go back in-law's hometown too now. -_-" It make me feel & realize that I'm an adult now but I'm lucky so far everyone understand me. & I'm trying to do my best. Same to my other half (I still feel weird to call & introduce him as my husband) :p, his problem will be my problem too; his dillema will be my dillema too.
Both of us has started our own business since end of last year. Till to date, it running smoothly although slow but almost 30% - 40% of the progress completed. But only within this month, he gets 3 different job offers. Of course none of it had confirmed yet at the moment but it's 3 good things coming in, thank god for it! Eventhough it came not in the right timing, but we actually headache for good things, not because of jobless. Murah Rezeki..
How? We had spent big amount of money into the business, it's growing almost half way at the moment, and now damn good offer coming in. It will not based in Sabah but it offers house, car & return air ticket to Sabah every year. Wise decision needed here. We calculated what will we get, our business will reach the same income as the monthly salary for the job only after more than 1 or 2 years. Of course after that business will produce more profit, just bit suffer in this 1 to 2 years but if he accept the offer, that expected amount of RM will came to us as earlier as starting from next 3 months, but what had we pay for starting the business will just burn that way (or maybe not burn, we don't know yet). hurmm.. I just wish that I able to run the business & let him go for the offer. Eh greedy.. xoxo.. but both of us sure either will be more farer, or both of us will be farer to our parents & siblings.
It's common sense, when people willing to offer you such great offer, it means you have to ready to work like a bull. I'm just worry on that especially the regular outstation but no matter what's our final decision later, this post of mine is not for show off. I just really thank god for the good offer and record this dillema for us to remember. This will be great & may be funny history when we success 1 day.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010


I'd ever posted this topic previously but I have to repost this again. It happen to one of my neighbourhood friend this recently, exactly the same case but different bank. Her account suddently empty, don't know where's the money goes even the bank can't detect. It's the same scheme, money been transfer online but don't know to whom and where. ~ scarry ~
Always be extra careful with online banking thingy & purchase item using credit card.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010


The day I'd changed my status: 10 May 10.

xoxo.. My status changed but my life haven't changed. I didn't feel anything change, we are still in two different places, I'm still doing my own thing and my other half still doing his own thing. O_O I'm just really touch and feel like to cry when I knew that my parents & family had trusted me, followed everything I want and supported me with their full blessing. My mum even became my respected witness. She didn't complaint anything, she didn't care how hard for her to get to that far Kudat district for a signature. I know she enjoyed her trip. That was really meaningful and hard to me, I really feel touch & I'll never forget about that.

Few friends asked me very direct, I feel sad sometimes when I heard what they said but no worries I never keep the hurt feeling in my heart. I knew they'd just talked directly & I love that, I prefer that way which they'd just tell me the truth directly. I know they concern about me, they are partly joking & just want to advice but they don't know my real life. They have more experience in marriage life even some of them ever divorced & there is some good point for me to consider what they said.

"Have you thinked twice?"

This is the 1st question I get hooked when I'd told them I'm going to on-leave for signing my marriage. I have thinked about this for few months, I've asked myself why do I need to get marry. Yes we can be together eventhough we are not married but to get marry is for the children to have a proper family & cert, it's not for tighting each other. & just ask back ourself, why do we need to be single. Do we want to be single for our whole life? For sure no.

"So when is your big day?"

This is the most common question that everyone will ask. I repeat, EVERYONE WILL ASK. Does the ceremony is really important? Does it will effect my whole marriage? No right? It's just something like announcement & look after good image, wearing something beautiful & pretent to become 1 day queen but the truth is bride & bridesmaid will be busy like shit for the whole day even some are more than 1 day & will never feel like a queen or king at all. Do people really love to attend it? The truth is most of people even hope that they're not invited. No, they wish to be invite but they will give reason not to come after that. Everyone will say they are busy with their own commitment or they are in somewhere else or whatever. Have you ever attend a wedding dinner which invited almost 300 people but there was not even half were coming? I did. That was more ambarassed & wasting money, better don't invite so much people. Cost for inviting 300 people can be deposite of a house. But of course we still will do it some day due to the conservative group like my family requested it. We will full fill both side parent's request 1 by 1 from time to time, that for sure. We are planning and do our best to make it within this year, probably October or after October. We just want a simple wedding & not making other people feel difficult & we don't want to relate our hardship with other people.

"It's raining, how do you go back home? Just call your husband send & fetch you lah.."

"Adakah orang sudah kahwin masih tinggal asing-asing?"

Nothing I can answer them other than just smiling. People don't know how's my life is and I have to be strong. It's hurt enough when I think about I'm alone here without him. This is not what we want but we have no choice, both of us have goals and both of us still must work separately for temporary. I'll jobless if I stay with him out of the city, unless if his business is really busy & he needs my help. At the same time, he is not suitable to stay in the city with me if he want to do what he is doing now. We have our long term dream/goals, we just need time and patient. Once he success in what he is doing now, then we will stay together. We have lot of things to do and our target is only two years, that's it. And now I just have to take care of myself and yes I'm married but I'm still alone.


"No money? Minta lah.."

I'm glad that I'm not jobless. I'm still using my own earn money, it's enough for me & never need to request from him but we have agreed that I will be the financial controller for both of us soon.


"Have you taken your wedding studio photo?"

It cost RM4,000 for the photograph, together with the album & renting the gound for ceremony. Does that neccessary? Only view and enjoy the photos during beautiful 1st few years of marriage and after that never touch it anymore. That's my senior married friends told me and I do believe it. I know some people love that, up to them but there are more things are important than those photos which cost few thousand of RM. Preparation for the marriage is more important than preparation for the wedding. For memory purposes, I'll prefer to look for individual photographer, rent wedding gound and take some outdoor photos. It's cheaper, helping my photographer friends get business & extra income some more, & some of them even better than the wedding studio photographer.


Until today I still feel odd to use the word "my husband". I tell myself everyday that I have married but I still don't believe it. xoxo.. I don't know why but it's true. I don't feel anything, no changes, no control, no culture shock but I always feel I have someone important in my life. We need each other but we can leave & do our daily task without each other. It's more about support, trust and understanding. I still can be with my parents & family anytime I want, I still going out with my friends so do him, and we can be with together anytime we want legally without objection. I love this kind of feeling and I hope this will be the reason for us to have a long lasting marriage.

Saturday, May 15, 2010


Upset.. From my previous post, I'd just try to contact 4 home made cake baker unfortunately all 4 bakers are and will be busy for the whole month till early next month. Oh no.. I'm late to order and bit dissapointed. hsk hsk hsk.. Sabar ja lah..

Friday, May 14, 2010


I'm in dillema. Dillema for a very small and simple thing. I don't know which to choose. I'm going to order home made cupcakes, funny but it's true I'm in dillema by a simple cake for the 1st time in my life. xoxo.. Normally only order a big cake, just cut it depends on how many guest but this time, I'm thinking to get cupcakes. I have thinked about it since past few weeks, thinking to place an order yesterday unfortunately I'm still not decided yet.

1. Quantity - Guest will be around 28 person but I don't know how many cupcakes should I order. 30? 32? 38? or more?

2. Flavour - Kids are cake lover. I'm thinking to order strawberry flavour somehow I know that some of the kids (the guest) will only eat choclate cake. So what now? Chocolate flavour would be different price, or should I mix?

3. Decor - Complicated decoration for the cake will be more expensive. So what color to choose? I think I will go to red but which design?

too flowery?

This would be consider complicated design and will be more expensive.


or this?

Sweet design..
Hmm.. I should place my order within this few days otherwise I will be late.. >_<
For those who would like to order or have a view for home made cake order, can check out Pink Roses Cake and also Deana Cake and also Atiqah's Baking. For KK area only. ;)

Thursday, May 13, 2010


Nothing much in this post, just for updating my blog. Showing some photos, cute things that I'd bought for last month.

Doesn't the above things are cute? ;) I'd bought 1 set last year for my niece and my mum told me that my small nieces were snatching and crying for it. Well I have a lot of my niece and I only bought 1 set that time. LOL. My mum requested me to buy some more sets but unfortunately it was sold out. Saw it was new stock last few weeks then I quickly grabbed it.

Doesn't the above thing is cute too? xoxo.. When you pull up the rabbit,

it toothpicks inside. ^_^ Toothpick not getting dirty this way & it's cute.

Colorful sepit baju..

for clipping underwear. xoxo.. Actually it use for clipping documents.

The above actually is a pen. The toy on it was just so cute, is for 1 of my niece.
That's it. xoxo.. ;)

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


This post gonna talk about my resolution / wishes / plan for this year. It's May, middle of the year but why do I only mention about it now?
1. I never mentioned about it end of last year nor early of this year.
2. I'd ever said that resolution and plan can be made any time, not only during new year.
3. I'm actually not going to tell people publicly about my plan or wishes but today I wroten down this post, it's because I'm going to change and restructure my plan due to some reason.
- Get my letter of appoinment and change my job. Checked.
- Prepare for CNY, I mean prepare budget for CNY. Checked.
- Activate my business. Checked but really slow progress.
- Expenses for CNY. Checked eventhough not that succeed. What I mean here is I only managed to help and spend little of my money to my family during the event.
- Suppose to buy new TV for my family. NOT CHECKED! Damn.
- Repair & make my hair do. Not checked since I've lot of other thing are more important than this.
- MegaSale on March & get a good quality bag for myself. Checked.
- Targeted business start to get stable in this month and expend it. Not checked due to some reason.
- Targeted more income from business & ready for house deposit. It's May now & this is not 'checked' at all.
- Change my handphone. If you saw my handphone, oh my.. LOL.. It's outdated & full of scrathes not joking but since I'm aiming the one that is expensive, so this plan have to postpone.
- Book & plan for a vacation. This plan have to change.
- Renew Passport. Not going anywhere this year & not going to renew.
- Get a Guess watch for myself. Oh yes I'm aiming a Guess watch but this plan have to postpone. There's some other things are more important than this.
- Try to arrange loan for a new house. Since business not stable yet, unable to do this within this time around.
- Preparation for my enggagement. Plan changed.
- Expend business again.
- Get enggage. Plan changed.
- Vacation. This plan unable to be done within this year.
- Get myself a laptop. Will think about this again.
Nov & Dec
- Preparation for Wedding for next year.
If you can see it's more to financial management, yeah coz I want to get everything with my own earned money. I just don't want to overspend during the month, that is why even buying a single bag is inside my plan. Some people just said why don't I request it from bf. I just don't understand why today's life, people allow people to become so materialistic. For me if you love that person than don't make him suffer. It's his responsibility to take care of the financial for the family after married, not during couple. Nanti kalau tidak jadi kahwin & after break mengungkit lagi kana kisas.
That's only my own opinion anyway. Now every of my plan changed. Will only announce here later why everything has changed & I just hope my new plan will bring a new better life for me.

Saturday, May 8, 2010


To all mothers in the world, Happy Mother's Day..
Dear mum:
Sorry can't go back to celebrate Mother's day with you this year but you are always the best mum in my heart & always love you. I'm proud of you mum. Mother's day is not the only day to celebrate, for me everyday is Mother's day, surely will going back regularly to be with you coz I always miss you.
Dear soon to be mum in law:
I don't know what to give you, I have nothing & I'm nobody but I'll always love you & proud of you too. I'm really touch with everything you've done to me. & thanks for producing your special son. xoxo..
Dear myself:
Happy Mother's Day too.. ^_^

Wednesday, May 5, 2010


There was 1 afternoon when I was study in KL before, My x-housemate and I were watching the 60's / 70's video clip (I'd forgoten the singer & song) and we actually been amused by it. Well the fashion, hair, action was old style. 1 of my housemate just told me that, after 20 years from now, the younger generation will feel amused with today's fashion and video clip too. At that time everything will be in technology even a singer or actress might be a virtual 3D person moving and dancing on the TV screen. Yes it's not imposibble.

I'd been invited to join an e-learning seminar (score A program) by my aunt. Well in my mind it might be a multilevel marketing which is so popular now adays. You can know it when some1 suddenly call and approched you nicely, and insist you to go somewhere together with them. Checked out from internet before accepted the invitation and oh yes it's true, it's a multi level marketing business. I know my aunt wanted to drag me to join, she has a very good approach and at the same time I was interested to know more about their product too. So, I'd attended the seminar together with her last night.

Overally I love the product and overally I unlike the speakers. Sorry to say but this is only my own opinion. I know they are working hard to earn money too but their minded and the way they tried to drag people in was clearly showed they are so so so desperately greedy.
ok score A is a good product. Because of they knew that today's kids love technology, this program is just trying to make the learning process more interesting using internet / technology. What the parent need is just ready a computer / labtop, broadband for internet connection and register score A account.
Parents have to BUY a password from this company for the student to log in. The system stored notes and pass year questionaires, for primary 1 until form 5 in every subjects. They had arranged chapter by chapter very well for the student follow the syllabus and stored pass year question (UPSR, PMR and SPM) since pass 16 years. It means they'd stored the exam question from 1993 until last year's question.

Student can check and do their revision by just checking the notes and there will be so call i-teacher too. What you need to do is just choose you feel the most hensom/ beautiful teacher.

I was studied in IT field before and our University was a virtual university which mean we was learning via e-learning. We didn't need to go to class, just online to attend class and so do the lecturer. Want to know what happen with this kind of learning style? IT DOESN'T WORK and there is no virtual University in Malaysia anymore till today. My University was the last did it. I still remember it was the time, every student logged in and attended the class so do the lecturer logged in and gave tutor. Everybody kept quite accept the lecturer talking alone without seeing us in the system, and when the lecturer asked question no body answer. You know what had happened? Every student had log in the class just for attendance and then went to toilet break for 2 hours till the class finished. You know what I mean, every1 escaped. It was damn boring tutorial and really doesn't work as good as face to face class.

So do this i-teacher as mentioned by score A program. I'd tried to logged in the demo using the demo ID and tried it. Yes the i-teacher given response, answered question but it does not give a really satisfied answer sometimes especially when I asked stupid question. LOL.

Other than notes and this "clever" teacher, student also can picked a composition title, wrote a composition and sent to the system. The staff or so-called "teachers" behind the system will check, mark and return it back to student within two days.

Regarding the questionaires, student can attend trial exam which has timer follow the exact exam time. The result will then send to parent's handphone and also will showed under a "notice board" in the system. Every student's result from every part of Malaysia will be show there then the student can know what is their ranking. Good? That is the founder's idea. Tuition price for a student in the city:

and by register score A,

For 2 children RM600, subsciption for 6 months + RM50 for the activation.

The student can do revision on every subject with this system, but I feel that student still need tuition, parent guidance and may be this score A can be another extra exercises for student.

or, they have promoted another package

take ePartner Saver Package.

Now, this was the most disgusting part. Talking about the RM RM RM that you can earn from this ePartner Saver Package.

"If you have no kids, It's OK. This is for you. Very simple! You just have to follow 2 steps to get income!"

"Step 1, share and look for only 2 downline then you can get bla bla bla.."

"Step 2, look for another 2 downline to join then you can get bla bla bla.."

If you want to know, they'd highlighted this part and for them this is the most interesting part.
Testimonial Speaker 1:
"I was working in KL before, working with a bank. My salary was around RM2,000 - RM3,000. When I came back here, I was jobless and I didn't know what to do. Found out that vacancy in Sabah only offered very small salary. I'd tried to join a lot of multilevel marketing but this Kenshido marketing is the best and it works for me. I'd received RM5,000 for the 1st month I'd joined."
Testimonial Speaker 2:
"There are 3 types of person.
1, when they hear about this, they opened their mind and quikly find way to join it & change their life.
2, when they hear about this, they will ask you to do 1st and look for them when u success.
3. when they hear about this, they'll say we are cheating and totally condemn us.
Now, which 1 are you?"
Testimonial Speaker 3:
"I was a marketing officer before selling property. My salary and commision could reach til RM8,000 per month. I quited my job and do this Kenshido marketing full time and only the 1st month, I get more than RM2,000. That was starting, doesn't that great? I have no diploma and no degree but I can do it."
Testimonial Speaker 4:
"I was an engineer before. I worked for the company more than 1 year. My salary was RM2,200 for the starting but it was not enough for my monthly expenses at all. I worked very hard for the company but my increment was only RM130. It stil not enough for me, I quited my job and start this and do you know how much I get now? RM10,100. What for work with other people? Don't you have a dream? Join us now!"
Nothing wrong with the marketing system actually, but the speakers were really wrong for me. They are not a good example at all. I, as the potential customer doesn't want to hear about this la.. I need to hear the testimonial about the product not your income.
Dear Testimonial Speaker 1:
Oh you really don't know what to do until you join most of the multilevel marketing in Malaysia. It's not easy to look for a good job in Sabah somehow actually there is good job in Sabah. Anyway, good luck.
Dear Testimonial Speaker 2:
I'm not in this 3 person that u mentioned. I'm interested with the product not the marketing or so called "business" that u introduce. I will rather just take the normal portal only for using the program than become your downline and then find my own downline too. I know u just geram with those people who don't believe you & don't want to be your downline, & you are trying to insinuate. It's not that I don't believe the income. I know it's true but I know it's not that easy as you talk. What will happen if you actice but your downline is not active? Your income will stop my friend. To get such income I have to spend more to become your donline, then I have to find my downline, then I have to make sure my downline is actice and have their downline too & so on. Otherwise, it wasted money wasted energy & wasted time. If not serious, better don't join. This is not business at all, this is just a marketing strategy by the brillian people. Brilliant people own the business not you. They'd just using you to become their marketing people without hiring. You work more then you gain more for yourself, that's it.
Dear Testimonial Speaker 3:
You are not a good example. So do you encourage people to quit their job & join you? You know how hard to find even 1 downline but you cheating people. From your RM8,000 salary to RM2,000 income? Good.. I can give a same testimonial like you too. I can simply told people this is my car at the moment.


This program is just good for kids if you have kids, then share with other people preferable those who have kids too. It's something like market & share it slowly from time to time. Not rushing & desperately drag people to join. You will easily dispointed that way. Don't only see the money figure, money is evil. It's up to people whether they want to join it or not, they want to do it full time or part time.

Dear Testimonial Speaker 4:
You are a great speaker, congrats to that but 1 thing I want to say is, people don't join your Kenshido marketing doesn't mean they would like to work for other people for their whole life. You are working with Kenshido founder too, aren't you? You do marketing for him. It's not your product Mr. If you are really brilliant, come out a new product and start your own multilevel marketing business. That is really yours. For me, I'm working not only for money. I'm learning things here. I've just imagined that my salary is RM10,000 here but the company never pay me so because they'd deducted for my learning fee and that imagination really work for me. Where can I buy such knowledge and experience? Even the best bookshop in the world doesn't sell it. And I work with other people doesn't mean I satisfied with my current situation. I have my dream but not with joining your Kenshido marketing. It's better for me to start a real business myself than joining you.
What testimonial we really would like to hear is, tell us something good about your product not your salary. I'll clap my hand if those young testimonial speaker had told us how their younger brother & sister's result has improved but it was not. I was yawning and feel it was disgusting.
Hey young people, try to be open minded in a right way. Be realistic, not competing. We can compete but do compete in a correct way too. When you earn this much, don't try to spend THIIIIIISSSSS much.. When you love to spend THIIIIIIIIISSSS much, that is why you'd been attracted by the virtual money figure easily. Well for those who joined any multilevel marketing, I'm not condemn you but I'll just wishing you good luck.