Wednesday, December 29, 2010


Counting down to new year? Just same like I said end of last year, I’m not excited for the New Year. Overall I love year 2010 eventhough this entire year really stress me up and down but New Year still doesn’t really mean a new beginning. It’s just a number changing and all outstanding will be bring forward to another year.

2010, quite a big life changes and life challenges to me but I still loving it. It will be really memorable. I know I didn’t achieve much, but it was great to refresh back what had happened on me for the entire 2010.



I get a good job with a great salary but at the end I’d resigned from it.


I’d moved out from a place that I felt like hell. Sorry I know I’m so cruel and not worth to say this way at all but that was what I really felt for more than 4 years.


I’d moved to a better place than previous one but… should I tell more? Sigh.


Get married in a simple way yet a lot of gossips. LOL. Oh I love those people.

5. Business has been handed over to other people and now I’m wonder and still waiting when can I get back my capital. Eheem..


Wardrobe for this year are more to pregnant mummy outfit.


Staying in my hometown for a long time and spend lot of wonderful times with my lovely family. ^_^ I like!


Experienced having a cute little baby, my greatest therapy. ^_^


From a career women change to a full time modern mummy. Modern? Blueeekk.. LOL. My baby is my boss now, I’d tried to change myself and I’d learn a lot from it.

10. I'd gain back my original weight same as before I get pregnant. ;)

11. I’ve a new boring hobby - reading. Yes I’d read more books than previous year. Yaaayyy…

What I’d planned but not achieve:

1. Renew passport – no vacation so no renew.

2. Vacation - due to having little one but it’s ok. ^_^

3. Own a laptop or desktop computer with internet connection – no fixed stay place and I have internet to use for the whole day in office before.

4. Expand business - due to business had been hand over to others in the middle road.

5. Change my old and outdated handphone. Poor me I’m still using the same handphone as 3 years ago – I’m aiming a good quality but expensive phone. No enough money and I don’t like to get ccm just for a handphone. My phone is really outdated yet still very good condition and still can be use.

6. Buy a new TV for my parents - today’s plasma TV selling in the market are really in a big screen size and doesn’t fit our old fashion TV cabinet at all.

7. Having my own house – when my salary is increase, property’s price is increase too. Shit.

Bohoohooo to me.. I'm totally not a good example.

Writing or talk about resolution or plan is so simple but actually its need time to achieve. Yes for me really need a long time to achieve coz I have to work hard myself for everything I want. I'm not rich. I accepted that I’m going through my mid life crisis stage at the moment but I’m still very happy and feel thankful for everything. I enjoy the whole process.


I was studied in peninsular before, transfer back to Sabah 5 years ago. I thought that my transfer will end my life in Sabah but no. I’m going out Sabah again very soon in next year and that will change my current life again. Will it be better? Nobody knows. My goal is still the same no matter where am I somehow I’m still thinking on how my plan is going to be for next year, coz I will be in different place and environment. So for 2011, I’m still doing my listing but I didn’t say that I will publish it here. Hah.. There is one thing for sure I will really sad about, I’m going to be far away from my family (my parents, siblings and niece) again. Sob sob..

No matter what, I’m always happy with my life. I'm glad and believe that my life is far more better than most of people out there. Just take the opportunity here to appologize for those I've ever hurt, given trouble and offended. I know they are some. Really sorry and not forgetting to THANKS to those who have ever came or walk through together with me in my life. I love you all. So here,

Wishing everyone Happy New Year and God Bless Everyone always.. Cheers ~

Sunday, December 26, 2010


Hi everyone, how was your Christmas holiday this year?

For me it was fun and all my sis and their family has took their opportunity to come back hometown. Oh yes it means my mom's house was full.

Actually we don't really celebrate Christmas but since I'm here this year, so me and my nieces organized exchange gift. Everyone planned to come back, my niece organized bbq. Oh well it's always a good news for adult coz it means let the kids cook, we adult don't need to cook. LOL. But who knows it's wrong. Letting them to cook actually letting us more busier coz everywhere is more messy.

Yellow watermelon for juice.

BBQ under the durian tree.

Chicken wing, popato, sweet corn, egg plant, sausagge, prawn ball, sweet potato, big onion ect..

Good, everyone doing their task by blended watermelon juice and preparing salad. We adult just waiting to be serve. =)

It's normal to eat before their works done, while we adult is hungry and still waiting to be serve. At the end we still have to cook to ourself. -_-

This is what the kids excited for. We had showed the present for few days and everyone can't wait for it. LOL. Somehow I didn't manage to capture the moment when everyone get and opened their present. It's really crowded and noisy I tell ya.

This is what we get after I opened it. The snowman still in the plastic is mine. Thanks sis.. I'd ever said that I love decoration thingy and I really get one. ^_^ Me loike! And the other 3 things are belong to my baby's. xoxo.. Yeah my baby doesn't understand anything but I'm happy for her and will let her know when she grown up.

Yay it's a fun day somehow, because of the house is too full, too many people, too many kids and everyone was busy,

This is good.. We only realize this after everyone went back home and we totally have no idea which elephant has actually done this. Hmm.. So where should I sleep tonight?

On the floor.

Friday, December 24, 2010


It's Christmas Eve..
Really sad that unable to celebrate Christmas with my man this year. Sob sob.. But it's OK, I know I'm going to be with him on next Christmas and onwards.

Here I'm whishing those who celebrating,
Happy Jolly Christmas!! Wheeeeeeeeee~~
Have a warm Christmas Everyone..

God Bless Everyone and What I Want For Christmas Is my little baby! Wheeeeeeee~~

Next, BBQ on Christmas Day. Wheeeeeeee~~

I still hope that my man are with me.. sob sob..

Wednesday, December 22, 2010


Today is Winter Solstice Festival.

Happy Winter Solstice Festival to all chinese who celebrate it. Photo above I was holding a plate of uncooked tang yuan which is the main food for the festival, with the ugly background I know.

Oh well someone is busy with it too.. xoxo..

As I'd mentioned last year, winter solstice actually is celebrating the 'ying' by chinese people. 22nd December for every year is the day which is the coolest, and has the shortest day time and longest night time for the entire year. Because of chinese believe in ying and yang, this is why winter solstice is special and 'ying' been celebrated. Normally chinese cut their hair before this festival, and not before chinese new year. ;)

Yummy Tang Yuan..

Yuan means round. During this festival, it's all about the gathering of family members, having meal in a round table. Nothing is more precious than being with our family. So, Happy Winter Solstice, love our family and always spend more time with them. ;)

Saturday, December 18, 2010


If we are sexy when single, people will compliment:

"Wow! Hot Chicks!"

If we are sexy after giving birth, people will compliment more:

"Wow hot mama! Doesn't look like a mother with 2."

LOL. I'm not a hot mama but at least I've totally gain back my original weight as before I'd got pregnant 1 year ago. Oh yeah original weight doesn't mean original shape. LOL. That is why I need exercise. As I always said, I don't have a prefect nor sexy body but I know I'm healthy and I always maintain my exercise. I know I'd rest too much this lately, I mean lack of exercise since 4 months ago.

I'd slowly started my exercise again by doing house core and slow walk. Walk up the hill to town once a week just to buy my baby's milk powder, approximately 25 minutes walking journey from home. Sometimes borrow my niece's bicycle and cycling around the house compound but there is one thing that I hate, their bicycle doesn't have breaks. -_-"

Now then I'm trying to start some more extreme exercise such as running and jumping. So here I'm sharing some kampung style of exercise tools. I don't know about others but this really recall my childhood, one of my kampung game when I was a kid. Today's kid doesn't play this type of game, I have 11 nieces and 1 nephew but none of them know how to play it. It's rubber band rope skipping.

First of all, I just need recycle rubber band as much as I can. I still remember I always can't escape to be scolded by my mom because of stealing her recycle rubber band in my old days.

To start it, just putting the rubber band into one another.

Continue the step by putting it into one another until it's getting longer and longer.

When it's long enough, just tight the last rubber band at the end of it.

Ignore the ugly feet.
The length of the rubber band is suit for my height and now I have a cheap rubber band as a rope skipping for me to do my exercise.. ^_^ Kampung style but it works..
Really sorry for the poor explaination and happy bexercise. xoxo..

Thursday, December 16, 2010


I'm sorry this is neither a good news nor good post.

RIP Mr. Turtle.
Chinese believe that having a turtle in a house is very good feng shui while a turtle die is really bad feng shui. Anyway, I don't totally 100% believe in feng shui.
Our pet, such a beautiful and unique turtle has just died recently. :( sob sob.. Anyone know where can I get such same type of turtle to replace?

Tuesday, December 14, 2010


I know everyone is in christmas mood at the moment especially those who are celebrating, I'm in that mood too so I'm writting an entry about it. I'm not sure where will I celebrate my christmas this year. Actually I'm not celebrating it, it's my husband celebrating it somehow seems like he unable to get away from work during the season this year. sob sob..

I'm still in my hometown at the moment. My family not celebrating christmas however, my sis married to a christian too so my nieces celebrating it. I love christmas among all the seasons I tell ya. I love christmas decoration and soft christmas song. ^_^ for me christmas is so warm in a family gathering. Ok I'd said that last year and I repeat it again this year. But one thing that really make me worry is, Christmas is only one day and after Christmas means ANOTHER NEW YEAR! Oh gosh time pass so fast and I'm geting older! There's still lot of things that I havent achieve! Shit.. Pause the time please..

OK kids is always excited with Christmas and a small christmas tree had been set up in my mum's house. Can you believe the above christmas tree + decoration + light only cost below RM50? That's really cheap. The kids come to my mum's house everyday, that is why all the decoration had been done here instead of in their own house. It's school holiday tho and I believe this coming christmas will be a blast for us. I mean the kids. We are planning to have some activities for the kids during christmas and exchange gift of course. My name and my baby's name in! Wheeeee... ^_^ I'm not a kid but joining it make me feel more younger. LOL.

Niece: "Baby Xiomira doesn't know anything about christmas, and she don't know to buy gift."

Me: "I buy on behalf of her of course."

Niece: "So can we put the cat's name in?"

Me: Duh.

A yellow cat in my mum's house.

Budget is around RM15-RM20. We had picked a name, who should we give the present to. So I get the name tuuuuut and tuuuut for my baby. LOL. I raftly know who get my name. xoxo.. and I heard someone talking to my baby: "Xiomira, do you like red long pants? If yes then smile to me.."


My baby blur and ignore it of course, did her own things without understand what had been asked. Well, I'd given a hint. Just 1 set t-shirt with long pants for her is good enough, I need that for my baby. xoxo.. And she seems like prefer purple more than other color. I might be wrong but I like purple too. LOL. No I prefer apple green color for her. It's cute and suitable for baby boy too (who knows my 2nd child will be a boy :p). But I know baby's thingy are mostly pink and blue so just let the sender to decide.

As for me, I'm not sure what I wish for. I like decoration thingy somehow it's not that suitable coz I'm going to move soon so just let the sender to surprise me. May be they have a better idea. ^_^ Lastly, will it too early to wish everyone Merry Christmas now? xoxo.. Okay, season greeting from me in advance.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


This post is a bit emo. xoxo.. Saw my friend posted it in fb, really touching. Now I get it from youtube and pasted here to share with you all.

Older people are sensitive when they are getting more older. So do my own parents, and I'm getting older too. Today's kids are different from my old days due to the different generation and their current life style. I've ever saw young kids who don't respect senior citizens even to their own granma and grandpa. How sad is that.. Yeah may be they are still small and don't understand lot of things but that is really sad and I personally feel annoying.

I just hope that one day my child understand and will respect their parents and grandparents.

Sunday, November 14, 2010


UPSR result was out past few days, just want to take this opportunity to congrats those who get good result. To those who didn't get a good result, don't worry. Still long way to go, this is only UPSR and there are 6 more other type of inteligence other than academic. Bad in academic doesn't mean you are an idiot.

My niece Gwendoline, 7A.


My niece Yonnie (part time baby sitter to my baby), 6A1C

My cousin Nick (in the middle), a great basketball player, 5A1B1C


Those kids above really have done their good job. I still remember during my time, it was so hard for me to get even 1A. But as I said, there are 7 types of inteligences. Bad in academic doesn't mean you are an idiot. Good result in only academic theory also doesn't confirm that you will success in your life. Just look around, those who are jobless today are mostly high educated. Well that's only some motivation word for those who not satisfied with their result. And for those who have a good result, don't be snobbish, keep it up and expose yourself to more inteligence. :)

Nothing to do with the title, it's just 3 great fellow who are born in tiger year. Again, congratulation. Cheers ~

Thursday, November 4, 2010


Just recall back everything before my delivery..

I read a book, saying that the mummy apprearance during pregnancy will determine the brain development of the baby in tummy too. :)

I had decided to deliver my baby in Sabah coz I wanted my baby’s status as a Sabahan. Thank God for the strength, I’d managed to think positively all the time & went through everything without my man next to me for the 9 months pregnancy. Went through everything alone and only depends on public transport to work/everywhere everyday bringing a heavy tummy was tough, I use to get jealous with those pregnant woman that had been taking care by their hubby, but I understand that we have no choice and I still feel thankful. Glad that my body was really strong and good health, and I really proud with everything. We had to be apart for a better life in the future.

Normally woman deliver baby earlier than their due date so I took my maternity leave (but I’d resigned at the end) two weeks earlier from my expected deliver date as advised and went back to my home town for preparation. I thought that I was going to deliver earlier but no. I was late 3 days from my expected delivery date. 2 weeks time really gave me enough rest and enough time to mentally and physically prepare. Thanks to my family for the support and healthy food. 1 thing I will never forget and will tell my baby 1 day:

My little niece slaughtered durian for me every single day follow his mood. Yes I mean follow his mood at anytime. Sometimes 3 times a day.

I’d told him that I don’t like to eat durian and he answered me, “Give it to your baby eat la.” Such a pure kids thinking and I’m touch with his effort.

Our family’s durian farm.


Not far away from Sabah Tea & Kg. Luanti Fish Massage.

Fish Massage. Oh Yes we manage to went there before my delivery together with my brother’s family and the kids.

Nothing happen on the day of my due date, I’d seek advice from my sis. It’s first time and of course I was worried however, my sis had comforted me and explained to me that it is normal to deliver a little bit late, just that have to count the baby movement very carefully. Unfortunately at the same night, I was bleeding, but only went and admitted into hospital on the next morning. Still blurred and clueless for everything. Normally delivery will only admitted into hospital for 1 day but guess what, I’d been admitted for 3 & half days. Yes I repeat 3 & half days. Staying in hospital was so boring of course but that particular 3 & half days really gave another real different great experience. Well, 1st time.. LOL.

A woman with 4 kids told me before, the pain of deliver a baby will be like 10 times of the pain of toothache. Of course I was thinking OMG but then after experienced it I do think that it actually depends on an individual. For me (after experienced it), toothache is more painful than deliver a baby, or could be same. The difference is, toothache will non-stop pain for few hours or may be few days in mouth while contraction before delivery will pain around 1 minute then stop, then feel pain again after next few minutes and keep on repeating that way in tummy. Just have to make sure that body is healthy and enough calcium then will be ok and doesn’t feel pain on the backbone and waist during delivery.



I personally felt that confinement is more terrible than delivery, with the same food everyday for the whole month and the really-tiring-attire and the 1-month-didn’t-washed-hair. Oppss.. What to do, that is a must for the sake of good health in the future and so do call berpantang. How to look after the baby if the mother is sick kan? I’m a bit wonder also why the body easily masuk angin and weak during confinement, cannot break the rules at all even 1 week.

Luckily I didn’t go for surgeon too as suggested by few friends. Yes surgery will never feel the pain of contraction but there is a lot of risk. There was a case that the baby’s ear been wrongly cut during operation, oh no can u imagine that? But there are still a lot of successful surgeries too. Nature and natural birth is still the best for both new born baby and the mother. Just have to prepare mentally and physically to be strong. Everything that I went through was really natural, unexplainable & funny feeling. Will try to tell more about it in my next entry. xoxo..

Monday, November 1, 2010


I’m trying to record my happiness here but I’d forgotten how to write a blog. Thanks to those friends, relatives and my love one for the birthday wishes. You all are not around me but your wishes really made my day.

Do you realize that every gathering will include food? Food can unite people. If you cook and serve food to others, indirectly you have unite a group of people. :)

Thanks to my sis, put so much afford to ready such a nice birthday cake for old me. No celebration, just a simple cake but good enough to make me happy and glad that my parents, sibling, nieces and my cutest barbie doll were around with me for my birthday, actually is for my birthday cake I know. Well, nothing is more pleasure than gathering with my family and thank god for everything. Simple but happening.

My greatest gift ever.. Thank god for everything. My 1st birthday with the status as a mom & look forward for more. xoxo..

Monday, October 18, 2010


Been quiet for quite sometimes but still wanna say thanks to my loyal readers & friends who always follow and waiting for my updates.

As requested by some friends, here are some photos of my little 1. Thanks for your wishes which made up my day. Sorry for blur photos, will update you more later. Just have a look.

A baby girl, 2.95kg, 52cm length, normal birth. This photo taken not even 24 hours after she was born, when we just arrived home from hospital. She's still very skinny but she has a very chubby cheek.

5 days after born.

We named her Xiomira. Don't ask me what name is that, I don't even know what name is that. I'd listed few names but that's the name been chosen by her dad.

Her favorite sleeping style.

Photo captured when she was 3 weeks old. A very active baby & she is very good girl.

She's growing up fast, glad that I'd gone through those up and down, look forward for more up and down, proud of this little 1 & my family, & thank god I'm happy with my life.