Enjoyable Life

PHOTOCOPY

2011-01-01T21:28:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year.. This is the 1st post for 2011. Just share this two photos with u.

This is me when I was 1 year old.

My baby. Photo taken last month before Christmas.

Doesn't she look like me in my old days? xoxo..

COUNT DOWN TO NEW YEAR

2010-12-29T23:17:00.012+08:00

Counting down to new year? Just same like I said end of last year, I’m not excited for the New Year. Overall I love year 2010 eventhough this entire year really stress me up and down but New Year still doesn’t really mean a new beginning. It’s just a number changing and all outstanding will be bring forward to another year.

2010, quite a big life changes and life challenges to me but I still loving it. It will be really memorable. I know I didn’t achieve much, but it was great to refresh back what had happened on me for the entire 2010.

Achievement:

I get a good job with a great salary but at the end I’d resigned from it.

I’d moved out from a place that I felt like hell. Sorry I know I’m so cruel and not worth to say this way at all but that was what I really felt for more than 4 years.

I’d moved to a better place than previous one but… should I tell more? Sigh.

Get married in a simple way yet a lot of gossips. LOL. Oh I love those people.

5. Business has been handed over to other people and now I’m wonder and still waiting when can I get back my capital. Eheem..

Wardrobe for this year are more to pregnant mummy outfit.

Staying in my hometown for a long time and spend lot of wonderful times with my lovely family. ^_^ I like!

Experienced having a cute little baby, my greatest therapy. ^_^

From a career women change to a full time modern mummy. Modern? Blueeekk.. LOL. My baby is my boss now, I’d tried to change myself and I’d learn a lot from it.

10. I'd gain back my original weight same as before I get pregnant. ;)

11. I’ve a new boring hobby - reading. Yes I’d read more books than previous year. Yaaayyy…

What I’d planned but not achieve:

1. Renew passport – no vacation so no renew.

2. Vacation - due to having little one but it’s ok. ^_^

3. Own a laptop or desktop computer with internet connection – no fixed stay place and I have internet to use for the whole day in office before.

4. Expand business - due to business had been hand over to others in the middle road.

5. Change my old and outdated handphone. Poor me I’m still using the same handphone as 3 years ago – I’m aiming a good quality but expensive phone. No enough money and I don’t like to get ccm just for a handphone. My phone is really outdated yet still very good condition and still can be use.

6. Buy a new TV for my parents - today’s plasma TV selling in the market are really in a big screen size and doesn’t fit our old fashion TV cabinet at all.

7. Having my own house – when my salary is increase, property’s price is increase too. Shit.

Bohoohooo to me.. I'm totally not a good example.

Writing or talk about resolution or plan is so simple but actually its need time to achieve. Yes for me really need a long time to achieve coz I have to work hard myself for everything I want. I'm not rich. I accepted that I’m going through my mid life crisis stage at the moment but I’m still very happy and feel thankful for everything. I enjoy the whole process.

2011:

I was studied in peninsular before, transfer back to Sabah 5 years ago. I thought that my transfer will end my life in Sabah but no. I’m going out Sabah again very soon in next year and that will change my current life again. Will it be better? Nobody knows. My goal is still the same no matter where am I somehow I’m still thinking on how my plan is going to be for next year, coz I will be in different place and environment. So for 2011, I’m still doing my listing but I didn’t say that I will publish it here. Hah.. There is one thing for sure I will really sad about, I’m going to be far away from my family (my parents, siblings and niece) again. Sob sob..

No matter what, I’m always happy with my life. I'm glad and believe that my life is far more better than most of people out there. Just take the opportunity here to appologize for those I've ever hurt, given trouble and offended. I know they are some. Really sorry and not forgetting to THANKS to those who have ever came or walk through together with me in my life. I love you all. So here,

Wishing everyone Happy New Year and God Bless Everyone always.. Cheers ~

A FUN DAY

2010-12-26T21:07:00.009+08:00

Hi everyone, how was your Christmas holiday this year?

For me it was fun and all my sis and their family has took their opportunity to come back hometown. Oh yes it means my mom's house was full.

Actually we don't really celebrate Christmas but since I'm here this year, so me and my nieces organized exchange gift. Everyone planned to come back, my niece organized bbq. Oh well it's always a good news for adult coz it means let the kids cook, we adult don't need to cook. LOL. But who knows it's wrong. Letting them to cook actually letting us more busier coz everywhere is more messy.

Yellow watermelon for juice.

BBQ under the durian tree.

Chicken wing, popato, sweet corn, egg plant, sausagge, prawn ball, sweet potato, big onion ect..

Good, everyone doing their task by blended watermelon juice and preparing salad. We adult just waiting to be serve. =)

It's normal to eat before their works done, while we adult is hungry and still waiting to be serve. At the end we still have to cook to ourself. -_-

This is what the kids excited for. We had showed the present for few days and everyone can't wait for it. LOL. Somehow I didn't manage to capture the moment when everyone get and opened their present. It's really crowded and noisy I tell ya.

This is what we get after I opened it. The snowman still in the plastic is mine. Thanks sis.. I'd ever said that I love decoration thingy and I really get one. ^_^ Me loike! And the other 3 things are belong to my baby's. xoxo.. Yeah my baby doesn't understand anything but I'm happy for her and will let her know when she grown up.

Yay it's a fun day somehow, because of the house is too full, too many people, too many kids and everyone was busy,

This is good.. We only realize this after everyone went back home and we totally have no idea which elephant has actually done this. Hmm.. So where should I sleep tonight?

On the floor.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2010-12-24T21:03:00.004+08:00

It's Christmas Eve..

Really sad that unable to celebrate Christmas with my man this year. Sob sob.. But it's OK, I know I'm going to be with him on next Christmas and onwards.

Here I'm whishing those who celebrating,

Happy Jolly Christmas!! Wheeeeeeeeee~~

Have a warm Christmas Everyone..

God Bless Everyone and What I Want For Christmas Is my little baby! Wheeeeeeee~~

Next, BBQ on Christmas Day. Wheeeeeeee~~

I still hope that my man are with me.. sob sob..

HAPPY WINTER SOLSTICE

2010-12-22T21:29:00.006+08:00

Today is Winter Solstice Festival.

Happy Winter Solstice Festival to all chinese who celebrate it. Photo above I was holding a plate of uncooked tang yuan which is the main food for the festival, with the ugly background I know.

Oh well someone is busy with it too.. xoxo..

As I'd mentioned last year, winter solstice actually is celebrating the 'ying' by chinese people. 22nd December for every year is the day which is the coolest, and has the shortest day time and longest night time for the entire year. Because of chinese believe in ying and yang, this is why winter solstice is special and 'ying' been celebrated. Normally chinese cut their hair before this festival, and not before chinese new year. ;)

Yummy Tang Yuan..

Yuan means round. During this festival, it's all about the gathering of family members, having meal in a round table. Nothing is more precious than being with our family. So, Happy Winter Solstice, love our family and always spend more time with them. ;)

CHEAP EXERCISE

2010-12-18T21:39:00.012+08:00

If we are sexy when single, people will compliment:

"Wow! Hot Chicks!"

If we are sexy after giving birth, people will compliment more:

"Wow hot mama! Doesn't look like a mother with 2."

LOL. I'm not a hot mama but at least I've totally gain back my original weight as before I'd got pregnant 1 year ago. Oh yeah original weight doesn't mean original shape. LOL. That is why I need exercise. As I always said, I don't have a prefect nor sexy body but I know I'm healthy and I always maintain my exercise. I know I'd rest too much this lately, I mean lack of exercise since 4 months ago.

I'd slowly started my exercise again by doing house core and slow walk. Walk up the hill to town once a week just to buy my baby's milk powder, approximately 25 minutes walking journey from home. Sometimes borrow my niece's bicycle and cycling around the house compound but there is one thing that I hate, their bicycle doesn't have breaks. -_-"

Now then I'm trying to start some more extreme exercise such as running and jumping. So here I'm sharing some kampung style of exercise tools. I don't know about others but this really recall my childhood, one of my kampung game when I was a kid. Today's kid doesn't play this type of game, I have 11 nieces and 1 nephew but none of them know how to play it. It's rubber band rope skipping.

First of all, I just need recycle rubber band as much as I can. I still remember I always can't escape to be scolded by my mom because of stealing her recycle rubber band in my old days.

To start it, just putting the rubber band into one another.

Continue the step by putting it into one another until it's getting longer and longer.

When it's long enough, just tight the last rubber band at the end of it.

Ignore the ugly feet.

The length of the rubber band is suit for my height and now I have a cheap rubber band as a rope skipping for me to do my exercise.. ^_^ Kampung style but it works..

Really sorry for the poor explaination and happy bexercise. xoxo..

OH TURTLE...

2010-12-16T21:33:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry this is neither a good news nor good post.

RIP Mr. Turtle.

Chinese believe that having a turtle in a house is very good feng shui while a turtle die is really bad feng shui. Anyway, I don't totally 100% believe in feng shui.

Our pet, such a beautiful and unique turtle has just died recently. :( sob sob.. Anyone know where can I get such same type of turtle to replace?

CHRISTMAS MOOD

2010-12-14T21:13:00.011+08:00

I know everyone is in christmas mood at the moment especially those who are celebrating, I'm in that mood too so I'm writting an entry about it. I'm not sure where will I celebrate my christmas this year. Actually I'm not celebrating it, it's my husband celebrating it somehow seems like he unable to get away from work during the season this year. sob sob..

I'm still in my hometown at the moment. My family not celebrating christmas however, my sis married to a christian too so my nieces celebrating it. I love christmas among all the seasons I tell ya. I love christmas decoration and soft christmas song. ^_^ for me christmas is so warm in a family gathering. Ok I'd said that last year and I repeat it again this year. But one thing that really make me worry is, Christmas is only one day and after Christmas means ANOTHER NEW YEAR! Oh gosh time pass so fast and I'm geting older! There's still lot of things that I havent achieve! Shit.. Pause the time please..

OK kids is always excited with Christmas and a small christmas tree had been set up in my mum's house. Can you believe the above christmas tree + decoration + light only cost below RM50? That's really cheap. The kids come to my mum's house everyday, that is why all the decoration had been done here instead of in their own house. It's school holiday tho and I believe this coming christmas will be a blast for us. I mean the kids. We are planning to have some activities for the kids during christmas and exchange gift of course. My name and my baby's name in! Wheeeee... ^_^ I'm not a kid but joining it make me feel more younger. LOL.

Niece: "Baby Xiomira doesn't know anything about christmas, and she don't know to buy gift."

Me: "I buy on behalf of her of course."

Niece: "So can we put the cat's name in?"

Me: Duh.

A yellow cat in my mum's house.

Budget is around RM15-RM20. We had picked a name, who should we give the present to. So I get the name tuuuuut and tuuuut for my baby. LOL. I raftly know who get my name. xoxo.. and I heard someone talking to my baby: "Xiomira, do you like red long pants? If yes then smile to me.."

LOL.

My baby blur and ignore it of course, did her own things without understand what had been asked. Well, I'd given a hint. Just 1 set t-shirt with long pants for her is good enough, I need that for my baby. xoxo.. And she seems like prefer purple more than other color. I might be wrong but I like purple too. LOL. No I prefer apple green color for her. It's cute and suitable for baby boy too (who knows my 2nd child will be a boy :p). But I know baby's thingy are mostly pink and blue so just let the sender to decide.

As for me, I'm not sure what I wish for. I like decoration thingy somehow it's not that suitable coz I'm going to move soon so just let the sender to surprise me. May be they have a better idea. ^_^ Lastly, will it too early to wish everyone Merry Christmas now? xoxo.. Okay, season greeting from me in advance.

I LOVE U MOM AND DAD

2010-12-08T17:38:00.005+08:00

This post is a bit emo. xoxo.. Saw my friend posted it in fb, really touching. Now I get it from youtube and pasted here to share with you all.

Older people are sensitive when they are getting more older. So do my own parents, and I'm getting older too. Today's kids are different from my old days due to the different generation and their current life style. I've ever saw young kids who don't respect senior citizens even to their own granma and grandpa. How sad is that.. Yeah may be they are still small and don't understand lot of things but that is really sad and I personally feel annoying.

I just hope that one day my child understand and will respect their parents and grandparents.

3 TIGERS

2010-11-14T03:45:00.008+08:00

UPSR result was out past few days, just want to take this opportunity to congrats those who get good result. To those who didn't get a good result, don't worry. Still long way to go, this is only UPSR and there are 6 more other type of inteligence other than academic. Bad in academic doesn't mean you are an idiot.

My niece Gwendoline, 7A.

My niece Yonnie (part time baby sitter to my baby), 6A1C

My cousin Nick (in the middle), a great basketball player, 5A1B1C

CONGRATULATION! YOU'VE DONE A GOOD JOB! NOW SHAKE YOUR BODY OH YEAH!

Those kids above really have done their good job. I still remember during my time, it was so hard for me to get even 1A. But as I said, there are 7 types of inteligences. Bad in academic doesn't mean you are an idiot. Good result in only academic theory also doesn't confirm that you will success in your life. Just look around, those who are jobless today are mostly high educated. Well that's only some motivation word for those who not satisfied with their result. And for those who have a good result, don't be snobbish, keep it up and expose yourself to more inteligence. :)

Nothing to do with the title, it's just 3 great fellow who are born in tiger year. Again, congratulation. Cheers ~

BEFORE DELIVERY

2010-11-04T11:46:00.010+08:00

Just recall back everything before my delivery..

I read a book, saying that the mummy apprearance during pregnancy will determine the brain development of the baby in tummy too. :)

I had decided to deliver my baby in Sabah coz I wanted my baby’s status as a Sabahan. Thank God for the strength, I’d managed to think positively all the time & went through everything without my man next to me for the 9 months pregnancy. Went through everything alone and only depends on public transport to work/everywhere everyday bringing a heavy tummy was tough, I use to get jealous with those pregnant woman that had been taking care by their hubby, but I understand that we have no choice and I still feel thankful. Glad that my body was really strong and good health, and I really proud with everything. We had to be apart for a better life in the future.

Normally woman deliver baby earlier than their due date so I took my maternity leave (but I’d resigned at the end) two weeks earlier from my expected deliver date as advised and went back to my home town for preparation. I thought that I was going to deliver earlier but no. I was late 3 days from my expected delivery date. 2 weeks time really gave me enough rest and enough time to mentally and physically prepare. Thanks to my family for the support and healthy food. 1 thing I will never forget and will tell my baby 1 day:

My little niece slaughtered durian for me every single day follow his mood. Yes I mean follow his mood at anytime. Sometimes 3 times a day.

I’d told him that I don’t like to eat durian and he answered me, “Give it to your baby eat la.” Such a pure kids thinking and I’m touch with his effort.

Our family’s durian farm.

Not far away from Sabah Tea & Kg. Luanti Fish Massage.

Fish Massage. Oh Yes we manage to went there before my delivery together with my brother’s family and the kids.

Nothing happen on the day of my due date, I’d seek advice from my sis. It’s first time and of course I was worried however, my sis had comforted me and explained to me that it is normal to deliver a little bit late, just that have to count the baby movement very carefully. Unfortunately at the same night, I was bleeding, but only went and admitted into hospital on the next morning. Still blurred and clueless for everything. Normally delivery will only admitted into hospital for 1 day but guess what, I’d been admitted for 3 & half days. Yes I repeat 3 & half days. Staying in hospital was so boring of course but that particular 3 & half days really gave another real different great experience. Well, 1^st time.. LOL.

A woman with 4 kids told me before, the pain of deliver a baby will be like 10 times of the pain of toothache. Of course I was thinking OMG but then after experienced it I do think that it actually depends on an individual. For me (after experienced it), toothache is more painful than deliver a baby, or could be same. The difference is, toothache will non-stop pain for few hours or may be few days in mouth while contraction before delivery will pain around 1 minute then stop, then feel pain again after next few minutes and keep on repeating that way in tummy. Just have to make sure that body is healthy and enough calcium then will be ok and doesn’t feel pain on the backbone and waist during delivery.

I personally felt that confinement is more terrible than delivery, with the same food everyday for the whole month and the really-tiring-attire and the 1-month-didn’t-washed-hair. Oppss.. What to do, that is a must for the sake of good health in the future and so do call berpantang. How to look after the baby if the mother is sick kan? I’m a bit wonder also why the body easily masuk angin and weak during confinement, cannot break the rules at all even 1 week.

Luckily I didn’t go for surgeon too as suggested by few friends. Yes surgery will never feel the pain of contraction but there is a lot of risk. There was a case that the baby’s ear been wrongly cut during operation, oh no can u imagine that? But there are still a lot of successful surgeries too. Nature and natural birth is still the best for both new born baby and the mother. Just have to prepare mentally and physically to be strong. Everything that I went through was really natural, unexplainable & funny feeling. Will try to tell more about it in my next entry. xoxo..

FOREVER YOUNG

2010-11-01T10:14:00.004+08:00

I’m trying to record my happiness here but I’d forgotten how to write a blog. Thanks to those friends, relatives and my love one for the birthday wishes. You all are not around me but your wishes really made my day.

Do you realize that every gathering will include food? Food can unite people. If you cook and serve food to others, indirectly you have unite a group of people. :)

Thanks to my sis, put so much afford to ready such a nice birthday cake for old me. No celebration, just a simple cake but good enough to make me happy and glad that my parents, sibling, nieces and my cutest barbie doll were around with me for my birthday, actually is for my birthday cake I know. Well, nothing is more pleasure than gathering with my family and thank god for everything. Simple but happening.

My greatest gift ever.. Thank god for everything. My 1st birthday with the status as a mom & look forward for more. xoxo..

LITTLE ME

2010-10-18T12:58:00.011+08:00

Been quiet for quite sometimes but still wanna say thanks to my loyal readers & friends who always follow and waiting for my updates.

As requested by some friends, here are some photos of my little 1. Thanks for your wishes which made up my day. Sorry for blur photos, will update you more later. Just have a look.

A baby girl, 2.95kg, 52cm length, normal birth. This photo taken not even 24 hours after she was born, when we just arrived home from hospital. She's still very skinny but she has a very chubby cheek.
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5 days after born.

We named her Xiomira. Don't ask me what name is that, I don't even know what name is that. I'd listed few names but that's the name been chosen by her dad.

Her favorite sleeping style.

Photo captured when she was 3 weeks old. A very active baby & she is very good girl.

She's growing up fast, glad that I'd gone through those up and down, look forward for more up and down, proud of this little 1 & my family, & thank god I'm happy with my life.

HUNGRY GHOST

2010-08-24T11:30:00.014+08:00

I never want to skip meal, because I don't want to become a hungry ghost after I die.

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If someone asking "do you affraid of ghost?", what will be your answer?

I will answer, I affraid of human more than ghost.

Chinese, Japanese and Vietnamese is celebrating Ghost Festival every year. Hungry Ghost Festival is one of the chinese tradition festival which has been celebrating on the 7th month of the chinese calendar every year. During the first 15 days of this month, the gate of hell are opened up and ghosts are free to roam the earth where they seek some food and entertainment. Relatives who still alive normally will prepare some food and drinks, burnig hell bank notes and joss paper.

In some places, they even held the live performance and the 1st row of seat will be left empty with the believe, it's reserve to ghost.

On the last day of this festival, the gate of hell will be closed and those ghosts have to find their way back to hell. For this year, yesterday was the last day of hungry ghost festival. Do you aware of left over food and joss stick every where?

We normally think that this hungry ghost festival is really scarry and my family will always warn me to go out at night during this season but actually, it's a good thing where our own late ancestor coming back to the earth to have a visit and what they want is only enjoy the food and having fun for few days.

How true is that?

I have a friend who has a pair of special sexy eye which he can see those creatures in the other world. I've ever asked him regarding the ghost month and this what he told me. Human normally will pray, serve food and burn the notes in the evening or night and the group of ghosts will just stand around without doing anything. By the time the praying is finish and the notes had burned completely and the human go inside the house, the group of ghosts will then start to take the drinks and food left there and enjoy it. They scared of human actually.

People always been advised not to go out during night time from home during the season but actually, the chinese shop closed their shop at night during this season and left some food outside the shoplot is just to let the spirit moving around and enjoy more freely without any disturbance. Not because of the ghost will harm human. The ghost affraid of human remember. People always have the negative thought on that season but in reality, human are actually worse and more dangerous than a ghost or like some says, human is ghost.

Next, a more excited festival will be Mid Autumn or Mooncake Festival which is in the 8th month of chinese calender. ;)

5 BALLS IN THE AIR

2010-08-20T11:27:00.006+08:00

Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some fives balls in the air.

They are

WORK, FAMILY, HEALTH, FRIENDS, SPIRIT

and you are keeping all of these in the air.

You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back.

But the other four balls, (Family, Health, Friends and Spirit) are made of glass. If you drop one of it, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damage, broken or even shattered.

Work efficiently during office hours and leave on time. Give the required time to your family, friends and have proper rest. They will never be the same.

* I get the above statement from email. A 30 second speech by the former CEO of Coke-Cola, Bryan Dyson. Meaningful and just paste it here to share with everyone.

NEVER SAY GOODBYE

2010-08-12T12:10:00.013+08:00

I don't know about other people but this is what I feel.

When I'm working, sometimes it would be very busy and stressful, then I wished that I have a long holiday relaxing but there's still money come to me for shopping and may be travelling. Yeah sometimes I envy with some housewife who can spend a lot of time manage their house and be with their family. I wish I can be like them but of course I'm still very happy and thankful with what I have now.

Past few days, my man asked me,

"Have you drafted your resignation letter?"

I was like..

Resign?

Are you sure?

Is this what I want?

Going to jobless??

What is today's date?

Keep on counting the calendar and suddenly feel sad. Going to say goodbye to another group of friends again. Oh no.. I hate that part the most but yeah that's life. Friends always come and go. Still will keep in touch but everyone have their own path and it will not as close as before anymore. Sob sob..

I feel like I've just started working here, there's still lot of things in front for me to learn. And, this is a good company, good colleagues, good boss, good working environtment, good position, good pay (for my standard & experiences), good people, good friends, good location, good good good and good. Honestly this is one of the place I've worked that I feel flexible and never feel stress. As I said, boss and colleagues are good except some of those who located in HQ KL. LOL. Sorry to say that but I'm lucky coz I'm more to operation, not related to them so I seldom deal with them but still thanks to them for processing my monthly salary.

Until now, I still haven't drafted any letter. Just settling and clear up all the outstanding one by one. Office haven't known about my plan and I'm getting more and more busier. In my mind, I just keep on thinking what should I do once I'm jobless. I hope that I'm not going to be boring, and should I start a small business that related to my interest? Can it make money? Should I start working again once I reach the new place? Should I choose to further study again for a course? Or should I just stay at home become a house manager?

You see, when there is a job for us we keep complaining; when we are jobless we are complaining too. So actually what do we want? xoxo.. I still blur.

PENGUIN

2010-08-10T15:28:00.014+08:00

Friend: "Wis, your tummy is so big."

Wiskies: "Ok yeah I know I'm a mummy penguin now."

Friend: "So, when is your due?"

Wiskies: "Soon."

Friend: "Soon? But your tummy still small."

Wiskies: "What, you had just said my tummy is big."

Friend: LOL.

Old photo. Can I get back this slim?

I thought that only hot lady will be hot among guys, now then I know a pregnant lady can be hot too. LOL. Yeah sometimes I just feel like more eyes staring at me with lot of explaination on their face. I might think that maybe those people saw the potential to rob me because they know that I cannot run. With the curiosity, I'd questioned my Mr. Loba Loba.

Wiskies: "Normally, what's in guy's mind when you saw a pregnant lady?"

Mr.: "If me, deep down in my heart, I feel jelouse."

Wiskies: "Why? Is it because you guys thinking to flirt but you know she not available?"

Mr.: "Yeah."

Oh I see.. LOL.

NON-PERFECT RELATIONSHIP

2010-08-06T12:51:00.028+08:00

Caution: this post might have a lot of emo statement.
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xoxo

Sometimes, I couldn't control my tears when people asked me:

"Where is your husband?"

"Never trust long distance relationship, it doesn't work."
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Almost 8 out of 10 people will say that. Is it true?

Until today I still don't understand what's long distance relationship doesn't work means. I'd together with a same gentleman for almost 6 years since we were gf bf to husband & wife. Approximately 3 out of the 6 years we have been in long distance and so far it works on us. It's trust and loyalty all about. Yes there is a limit for trust, both won't broke it then everything will be fine.

I have no good advice to share here but I do think that it's depending on a person and situation. Not all long distance relationship won't work. It's not that we like to be apart, but we have our own goal and dream to achieve and that need us to be far for temporary.

Some people said, "How can you know what's your other half doing there? You can't see them."

Yes we can't see them but if you really love someone, amazingly you can feel what are they doing in the other side.

Some people are loyal, some are naugthy, some like to take advantage, some don't like to be control, some are really trying to "leave" you. But as for my opinion, if we really love someone then we shouldn't hurt them. Trust & be loyal. Someone who always hurt you or doesn't care your feeling, doesn't worth to be with you at all. Get what I mean? Yes left this kind of person go. Woman's feeling is more fragile. Happiness is very important, protect it. Another thing that must be avoid is being prejudice and hiding something. Ask, discuss, talk, understand, be honest & keep in touch all the time, not keeping on prejudice and hiding things.

I always excited when I know I have something to wait for. Yeah just as simple like waiting someone coming home. When that 'someone' is coming home, it's not only a smile on our face but our heart will smile & dancing too. When there is opportunity to be with together, we feel more appreciate for the every single of minutes. I'm not sure about other people. Missing someone is hurting of course but that kind of hurt is good for relationship.

Some people said, they get married because of they need generation (kids). For me, I need both, a partner and kids. I will say my bestfriend is my husband. As what I always see, normally people talk more open to others, normally to their friends than talking to their own spouse. It's because friends are always there to listen but they never control your life. It's not saying that no control at all here, control the bad things but having fun together like bestfriend do.

Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, conversation skill will be as important as any other.

I believe this statement. As we can see that today's more young people prefer to choose to study, work and marry overseas. Just imagine that when our child getting bigger and we are getting older, they will leave us here and having their own life in somewhere else. It will only left two senior citizen and here's the said real world for two people. Nothing that 2 old people can do other than sitting on a wooden chair chit chating & communicate among each other.

Health make all things possible,

Wealth make all things works,

Love make all things beautiful.

No one is perfect, no relationship is perfect.

We do have big differences in everything but when we united as 1, it's nearer to perfection.

*I know it's all mumbling and no point in this post. It's only my personal opinion and I just broke the rules to post some original non-edited photos here.

Wishing everyone have a beautiful happy love life.

Cheers~

FURRY TAXI

2010-08-04T11:41:00.013+08:00

I was bit late came out from home this morning & I missed the bus. I might late if I waited for the next bus, so I'd decided to take taxi to office unfortunately something amused me before I start my day in my work place.

Did you notice anything wrong? This taxi is full with furry I tell you.

Left side.
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Right side.
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Front sit. The air cond covered by the purple fur reminds me some monster. Don't you?

Cookie Monster. LOL.

Even the car staring and everything hanging in the car was furry. Luckily the Mr. Driver was not a furry guy otherwise I might thinked a lot before taking his taxi.

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At the back.

I just felt like I was a tarzan, sat in a car accompanied by a furry King Kong.

LMAO.

BLOG AWARD

2010-08-02T14:25:00.013+08:00

I suppose to post this entry since long time ago. xoxo..

I received blog award from hot babe! Auwww.. ;) Meaning to say there is still someone reading & visiting my blog. LOL. Yeah I always thought that I wrote my blog only for myself to read.

Thanks to the gorgeous Nancy for that, there was three awards but I'd only copy one. My blog is still far from the standard to get those awards but I think it's good for me to pass the award to someone else here. Her blog is one of the real interesting too & honestly I like to visit & always follow her update. Keep it up babe.. ;)

Gorgeous huh? Control your nose bleeding guys, now click & visit Potraits, Dreams & Memories regularly to find out more about her. ;)

Before passing the award there is 1 more rule which, I have to share 7 things that people don't know about me. There might more than 7 but the rules say so. This rule really makes me nervous & think a lot before I clicked the ‘publish post’ button. I might weird & I’m secretive but these are based on true story.

1. I don’t like durian.

I said that I don’t like durian doesn’t mean I hate & don’t eat durian at all. I still eat durian, it just that I don't like it & will not eat more than 2 pieces.

My dad was one of the durian producer in my hometown. I still remember when I was a kid, I use to help my dad to sell durian in tamu. The durians had been packed in big plastic bag and we have to carry to the tamu for sell. My hand, both left and right leg especially my calf was full with scars by the durian’s thorn. Well just a kid and it was heavy for me to carry few durians in a single big plastic. Now my dad won't sell it in Tamu anymore but we have durian stall at the road side Ranau - Sandakan highway which in front of our own durian farm, only open during durian season.

I used to love durian but there was one record happened to me which my nose bleeding 3 times a day. I’d been banned to eat durian since then and I’d started to dislike durian until today. The only durian that I love to eat and can eat a lot is this..

According to some people this type of durian only available in Sabah and it grows wild. Correct me if I’m wrong. We called it as Sukang in my hometown and it does not has strong durian smell. No matter how much I ate, this type of durian have will not cause me nose bleeding and the taste are more yummy than other types of durian. ^_^ but honestly, I don’t know how to slaughter a durian at all, I only know how to sell & eat. xoxo..

2. I seldom buy things, but if I buy, I’ll choose a good quality

This is the phone model I’m using at the moment, plus LOTS OF SCRATCHES on the body of the phone. I’ve used it for more than 4 years and I'm still using it now. It’s outdated, full is scratches and I always have problem when others wanted to forward some photos, video or music to me. No Bluetooth, no mp3, no mp4, no 3g, MMS not activated, no memory card, no dual sim card, no radio, no tv ect. So outdated.

A friend saw my hp and he said, “Wah Wisiah, you are only either 1. May be you are really economical or you are really stingy.”

LOL. None of the above.

Okay no.1, I’m not that fancy about hp like most of people.

No. 2, I seldom buy things (okay except for food & clothes) but once I buy, I’ll choose a good quality 1 and never care about the price. I know I will use a thing for very long time. If I’m not afford to have it then I’ll save money (no matter how long I have to wait) until I afford to buy it. Just like my camera. Some people said I can buy a SLR camera with the price of my digital camera. I knew it but I have my own reason why I still want that digital camera, it’s compact & good quality. (The time I bought la, now of course it’s outdated already.)

Same to my hp.. I actually aiming some phone that I like & I’m still saving money. I’m not rushing to have it anyway, my phone still in good condition, only outside look ugly. I’m not rich but sorry I’m not going to buy a China made 1 too. Xoxo..

3. I don’t talk my problems to my family and they become more worry

Yes I’m secretive & may be mysterious. I seldom tell others about my problems except to my man. Even my best friends don’t know lot of things about me and my background at all. I always try to solve things myself. If it doesn’t work then I’ll seek help from my man 1st or friends. That was exactly what I always did. Thank god most of the things solved by myself most of the time, sucked everything & just follow whatever happened to me.

My family getting worried easily when they knew I have problems, always try to interfere & arranged everything for me like I’m still a kids. I don’t know, it’s hard for me to speak out my problem to them. I just don’t want them to worry & be in trouble just because of me, they have their own family & own problem after all. Another thing is, my family members & relatives are quite conservative & typical minded. They don’t agree with lot of things that today’s young people like me doing but thank god, my family are getting more and more open now & support me a lot. May be it also because of I have a big age different with all my sisters & brother, it’s not that comfortable for me to discuss or talk lot of things with them.

4. Until today, I still haven’t added any of my colleagues in my FB friend list.

I’ve logged in into my FB account regularly but until today I still haven’t added any of my colleagues. It ever happened in my x-company where my x-lady boss warned her staff after she checked & knew her staff’s activities through FB. Not that serious case but to avoid that kind of things happen, I still haven’t added any of my current colleagues & bosses into my FB friend list. Only planned to add them if I’m ready to resign. ^_^

5. Only go to saloon once a year

Oh yeah I don’t have beautiful hair & I only go to saloon once or twice a year. I’m so lazy to go saloon, it needs time, even my weekend is always full of schedule, I normally been charge more in saloon on any services compare to others coz I have really thick hair, & not always get satisfied outcome after come out from the saloon. Yeah I always have to pay more for perm, straightening or dying hair and it takes longer time to do it compare to other people's hair.

6. I don’t know how to swim

I would love the activities like water rafting and snookerling but can I do that if I don't know swimming? Some people told me yes. Soon or later, I know I still have to learn swimming coz I know I'm going to look after kids swimming in the swimming pool in few more years. ;)

7. I have more than 5500 unchecked mail in my yahoo.

I check my email every day. Yes every single day. 5690 unchecked email doesn't mean I never checked my email. So if someone send me email, I still receive & will check it. All the 5000+ mails are forwarded email. Some friends who knew it asked me why don't I just delete it all. Forwarded email are mostly non-sence but some of it are really good knowledge. I did share some in my blog too, and yeah I really need times to check 5690 mails. With the time avalaible for me now, I only able to check may be 10 mails per day but it's not urgent anyway.

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That's 7 wonder things that people don't really know about me. Now it's time for me to pass this award to other bloggers. Lot of bloggers all around my blog, my favorite blog, my readers, my follower, blog that I'd followed ect but I'll only award it to few bloggers. It's not because some of you are not qualified but I know you had ever received the same award. See, I do follow your blog and I know it. So with the full respect I give the award to the following bloggers:

Mrs Graig - Mom & Her Diaries

Chesteristine - My Journey

Andy JR - In-De-Pen-Dent

Clarice's Journey

Indut - This is My World & This is Me

IsaacXposed

TwoFiveSix - My Consience

The Wandering Sumandak

Kampung Boy Went Overboard

with the rules:

1. Say thank you to the person who gave the award.

2. Share 7 things that people don't know about you.

3. Pass on other blogger friends who deserve this award.

Actually what the rules wroten "pass on to 15 blogger friends" but as you can see my link not even 15 people. xoxo.. As I said in earlier on, most of the blog that I visit had ever received the awards so I only put few names here & do click on the link and visit their blog ya.. Once again, thanks for the award & thanks for visiting my blog.

A VICTIM

2010-07-28T15:51:00.008+08:00

Eventhough the public transport in KK is suck, I still depending on public transport at the moment. I usually will go anywhere by bus but I'd been advised to take a taxi if the bus is full of passengers & no more empty seat. Its not safe for me to stand on the bus & I realize that normally most of the bus passengers in kk, they don't understand or may be they didn't see or they don't bother about this kind of sign board.

Pregnant women or senior citizen are always transperent to them. Seriously.

Yes, always happened that nobody wanted to free a seat for me. I'm not saying that I'm angry on those people not reserved a seat for me, but I started to have a bad perception & feeling like the world is getting more & more shellfish. I feel the most pity for those senior citizens. Just imagine if the senior citizen is our own parents, not been given a seat in a bus packed with lot of people while they are not strong enough to stand steadily, doesn't that cruel?

Taxi in KK is the most sucking blood public transportation. I always took a taxi to everywhere (if I was rushing) when I was in KL before but never in KK. Guess what, the taxi fair from Terminal 2 Airasia Airport to KK city will cost you RM15 - RM20 per way! Hey I can go back to my hometown (KK - Ranau) 2 hours journey by taxi with the same price. I don't understand why taxi in Sabah has no meter. If there is a meter, distance from Airasia Airport to KK city will not even RM8! I'm sure.

Now, I have no choice. I have started to take taxi since last month, pretending I'm rich when the bus was full of passenger or heavy rain in the evening. But then, I became 1 of the victim.

1. One evening, it was raining then I took a taxi went back home. Sat in the taxi and realized it was still like 10 years ago no taxi meter. When I arrived home I asked the taxi driver how much, he answered me, "RM15."

2. Another evening, it was raining heavily, flood was almost everywhere and the road was really jam. When I arrived home I asked the taxi driver how much to pay, he answered me, "RM18." I paid him RM18 coz yeah it's really bad weather condition but as I said, I can go back to my hometown (approximately >100KM) with RM18.

3. One evening again, I was bit late came out from office. I missed the bus and thick clouds was coming. I took a taxi which the driver drove the taxi like a bull & I asked how much to pay when I reach home, the taxi driver answered me, "cincai lah.. RM12 saja."

4. One morning, the bus was full with passengers & I might be late to reach office if I followed the next bus. I took a taxi & when I reach office, I just handed over RM12 without asking the driver. The taxi driver return me the RM2 and he only took RM10.

WTF. Different taxi different price? I was not satisfied and I'd questioned one of the lady who staying same area with me, she answered me "normally it's RM10 with taxi". Oh man.. How dear those taxi's. I know it's hard for them to earn money but the more we greedy, at the end we will get nothing okay. No wonder the taxi in KK still the same like 10 years ago, still susah cari makan. Even a local been taken advantage, what else if a foreigner. Who else want to follow you? Rich people have their own car or driver while poor fellow like me are not always afford to take a taxi.

"Teksi Bermeter" sign is on every taxi you saw on the road but none of the taxi in KK has a single taxi meter in it.

It's going to rain again this evening. I just wish the taxi's in KK will be fix a taxi meter in it ASAP.

AWIMAWE

2010-07-21T16:26:00.003+08:00

Aaahh.. Tired.. Tired..

Been busy & stucked with lot of things for the whole day today but found this from FB, it makes my day in the end, Isaac the 1 who shared it there. Just have a look, it's funny.
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Happy music but I hope my future kids are not like them next time. LOL.

JUST A TOUGHT

2010-07-19T12:03:00.004+08:00

Someone has forwarded me this message, just have a tought on it..

Money can buy a house, but not home.

Money can buy a watch, but not time.

Money can buy a bed, but not sleep well.

Money can buy book, but not knowledge.

Money can buy medical, but not a good health.

Money can buy rank, but not respect.

Money can buy blood, but not life.

Money can buy sex, but not love.

Money is important, but it's not everything.

Love is something

Money is one thing.

Attitude is another thing,

Happiness is EVERYTHING.

Enjoy Life for the fullest, so that you have nothing to regret when you are getting older. ;)

SILLY THING BECOME HISTORY

2010-07-15T11:57:00.009+08:00

I'd just changed my new purse last few days and this..

will be become of the history in my life.

Ok yeah I know Milk Teddy bear is childish. I still remember I bought it with the price of RM16.90 and I'd been using it since I was a student until last few days. It's about 9 years!

Only a small damage / ripped off but I did realize it's not that suit & look unmature for a working woman to bring a teddy bear thingy. Honestly I feel hard to throw it away. Because it has been together with me for so long time and go through my poorest moment in my life.

WHAT ELSE U WANT?

2010-07-14T11:08:00.004+08:00

When I read THIS from Stella Matilda's blog, same thing happen to me.

I don't know, there is some people who don't feel pleasure when they saw us success or happy and will do anything to destroy our happiness.

This is my life. I'm happy with my life eventhough I'm struggle & have no love one accompany & next to me with my current condition. I'm going to deliver alone here in few months time. Of course this is the time that I need him most but both of us understand we have to be apart & we have to face it. He has to full fill his responsibility in somewhere else but we want our future kids become a Sabahan.

Some bastarts, I don't know what's more they want to see. More struggle life on us? Should I inform everything & update every single status in my fb? I don't mind & can ignore what they want to say, but not saying something untrue & making my family stress. That was more than busy body ok, that's trying to add more seasoning in a story to stabbed us down. Why don't ask or talk directly to us. We might not a good example, we are not perfect & we had made mistakes but we rectified it one by one.

Just want to say that,

"Congratulation Bastart, so far you have successfully influenced & let the whole world believe your words but it's better if you can go get a life instead of trying to make other people miserable. Our life is none of your business & we never disturb your life. Go mirror yourself & look after your own family before trying to busy body with other people's life. & stop assuming & pretending you know everything about us. You know nothing & you will get nothing. & once again, stop making my family feel stress."

I'M FAT

2010-07-07T10:16:00.016+08:00

Preferable to read other's blog rather than update my own blog this time around. I actually ready to post regarding the award given by Nancy unfortunately it's not ready yet & changed my mind to post another topic.

Will it look like this?

This might be the first post for the 'to-be-mummy-post', xoxo.. I don't like to show off for this things. Yeah you can see some people are really excited for their pregnancy especially the 1st one, I'm excited too but I try to control & only show the excitement to my hubby. Well when we acting too much, sometimes we don't aware that we actually had let some people around us jelouse, offended or feel down. For an example when you see a couple keep on sending love comment in fb among themselve publicly which every friends in their fb can read. It's none of our business, sometimes we ignored it, sometimes we feel fun to read it but sometimes we will feel disgusting. Have you ever imagine those people who are still single read it? Of course they will feel jelouse & down. ok that is an example for couple, how about pregnancy? When you keep on telling (ok i know some mummy just can't control it, I'm not offended anyone here) people about your baby in your tummy, have you ever think what will those people who had-married-but-no-child will think? It's sad & jelouse. I really feel sorry, only within this year, I'd knew two of my married lady friends had their miscarriage. I'm sad to know that & I'm not suppose to brag in front of them. Just pray for them to get 1 ASAP & wish for their good health.
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Since this is my 1st pregnancy, I just need more tips & share some of my 1st experience. I know it's normal for a pregnant woman (huh I'm a woman? LOL I don't believe.) but this is 1st time for me. I have no idea in a lot of things and I don't know how to deliver. 1 tips that I get from my friend, she just advised me that don't show off that I'm pregnant especially in my 1st trimester. Yes I'd passed that & thank god I know that I'm healthy so far. & she adviced me that don't buy any baby stuff in the early stage of pregnancy, just save money until it's nearly to deliver. May be she is true in some view & I'd followed that.

My friends doing some online business selling baby stuffs based in KK. Anyone interested just click on the link & do add her into your fb friend list. ;) See, I never buy one from them but I'm helping them to promote. I actually interested to buy but their stock are always damn fast selling, it's cheaper compare to the price outside but some people advised me that don't buy too much clothes for baby coz they are growing fast! I actually haven't bought anything yet.

1. I might move but don't know yet where & I don't want to get headache on how-to-bring-so-many-stuff later.

2. I really don't know what to buy & prepare.

3. When I asked opinion from my sis, she just answered me "Don't buy anything, we have everything for baby here." o_O Thanks anyway, my sis even packed all her x-pregnant dress for me too.
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4. Common question from EVERY1, "Have you scanned? Boy or girl?" and most funny, those who knew my hubby has twin will asked excitingly "IS IT TWIN??"

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OK the answer is, I've scanned it and yes it's twin. LOL.. ok I'm just kidding. It's not twin (unless if the clinic make mistake) eventhough the dady has twin. It's very small posibility for us to get twin. Only our grandchild has the posibility to get twin. So what's in my tummy now? Actually we also don't know yet. The baby is shy & he/she has covered his/her private part with his/her leg. xoxo.. Tau juga malu rupanya.. We actually don't mind whether it's girl or boy as long as we know that he/she is healthy, clever & have heart. ^_^ & we will just try to buy unisex baby stuff, try to avoid pinky2 or brutal2 design so that 2nd baby still can use it no matter what gender.

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One of my aunt recomended the above cream to me when I was still a student practical under her. I still remeber it and this cream is actually for stretchmark. ;) I don't know, according to my aunt it's good & I'm using it. Yeah apply it since pregnant until after deliver. According to the sales girl in the BodyShop, for those who has stretchmark on thigh or any part of skin, can apply this cream too.

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Every morning I'm complaining that I don't know what to wear to work. My hubby bought a shirt for me to wear on Saturday to work.

Guess what, it's 'M' size shirt.. for pregnant? xoxo..

I just told him that I only can wear it for 1 week then I have to keep it until after I deliver.
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He just said, "No it's strechable, it follows ur body shape & it's sexy." o_o

LOL. ok lah pregnant pun mesti mo sexy.. If the nurses in clinic saw this, then sure they will comment to wear a bigger size of clothes. LOL. It's not SEXY OR NOT SEXY, it's for the tummy to grow. Thanks anyway. I like it & I know I still can wear it regularly even after I deliver.

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Maybe these are some of my mistakes & careless. I angry to myself sometimes & hate these things happened on me during my pregnancy.

1. I didn't aware of what food I should take during pregnancy in the 1st place, I ate sushi regularly before. Once or twice a month. Damn regret on this but since I knew that I'm not suppose to eat raw meat, I stop it.

2. Both my legs cramp every morning & I'd ever totally fell down in my bedroom because of unable to stand properly. I just felt that my leg was more painful than my other part of body at that moment but thank god nothing unwanted things happen until now. And now I get to know that it's because I'm lack of calcium.
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Nothing is more important than look after my food at the moment.

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Changes on me at the moment..

1. My leg getting swollen.

2. Hungry most of the time but so far I have no specific food that I'm craving for.

3. I'm getting bigger & tired easily.

4. My normal weight before I pregnant was around 52 - 53kg (ok yeah I know I'm an elephant). At the moment my weight is only 59kg, I'm getting worry because my previous month was 59kg too.

5. I always confident & under estimate that my body is just like normal but when I went through any narrow space, it's either my tummy or my butt will bumb one of the side.

6. Finger cross. I love this I tell you. - something is moving actively everyday in my tummy. I'd told my hubby that I wish to be in this way, don't want to deliver because delivering is hurting. In this way, I can always feel it moves, no hurts & don't need to take care a small child. xoxo.. Of course my hubby said it's not fair for him coz he didn't feel anything. Everytime he put his hand on my tummy, we don't know why things inside will only be quite & never moves, that is why he never feel anything. LOL. Ladies out there, get married faster & get pregnant faster, it's nice & sometimes funny to feel it.

Hubby: "Kicking? He will be a great football player in the future just like me."

LOL. Mentang-mentang lah x-state players.

Me: "Football? How if it's a girl?"

Hubby: "It's ok, then she will be a great dentist."

Dentist? I have no idea why dentist. I prefer them to be a language stranslator. xoxo.. What a setting & dreaming.

WEDDING PHOTOSHOOT

2010-06-28T11:05:00.004+08:00

Good day..

My breakfast this morning. Cute eh? It's yummy.. ^_^

Just simply post the above beautiful photo before continue with a disgusting photo. LOL. Just ready your plastic to vomit or whatever.

Are you ready?

I know you are not ready. LOL.

OK I know this is disgusting but I still posting it. :p

Eeeeewwww...

My sunburn from the last week photoshoot became like fungus on my shoulder skin. I personally hate it & I feel disgusting but that's one of the sacrisfy to have beautiful photos. LOL. Gitu lah kalo mo cantik. Actually like I said, weather was not hot at all, it's not like at the beach and we never expect that we will get sunburn.

Talking about the photoshoot, in my previous post talking about my own view on wedding. As I said I prefer to look for a individual photographer to shoot my outdoor wedding photos rather than choosing package from the studio or bridal shop. We had surveyed in few bridal shop who offers photoshoots package, today's price hitting more than RM4,000 per package including renting gowns, photoshoots, bridal car, make up, hair dresser, flowers ect. WTF price & I just feel like to start a bridal shop business too. Seems like most of today's couple really a good target & willing to spend so much money on a wedding.

Most of the married people including my friends & my own sis adviced me it's crazy, afterall the wedding photos only been viewed few times in the early of marriage and after that it's only collecting dust. I'm not sure how true was that, I've not gone through that yet, that was what I've been told but for some people opinion, saying that marriage is only once in a life time and will only gone through once. That's the only opportunity to be a 1 day princess, everything have to be beautiful but you know, normally only lady who were excited and arranged everything while the man were the one worrying about the bills. It's true, guys never keep in their mind what color of shirt to wear for their wedding.

Not planning to have wedding photo in the first place, but my family especially my mum suggested us to take some wedding photos at least hang up a frame of happy face on the wall where ever we stay later. Quite typical minded. ^_^ Whatever lah.. I actually excited for the outing, not the photo itself. We, actually it's me chose to go for an individual photographer. Here's are some of the pro & con after we have done till now.

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Most of the bridal shop offers RM4,000+ package while our individual photographer only offers us less than RM2,000, depends on what's our demand. Save us a lot.

It's helping my own friend. We given them business, they get experience & they have 1 project to add into their own profile. They are really happy with this. We really tried to be flexible to them & never push them.

It's more comfortable & fun shooting with people u know. We joking all along the way & do whatever disgusting action in front of our own friend. We are more like outing than done our shooting but we didn't notice that actually we had been shooted more than 500 times, while normal studio will only shoot 100 times & rush here and there.

Of course the gown is limited. Bridal shop will allow u to change any numbers of gowns & accesories if shooting under them , & their package including make up & changing few hair style but as for me, I make up myself, did my own hair, no body set me up & because of outing photography session, I changed my dress only in the car. LOL. It's not easy but it's fun.

We though that a cheap cost that we pay will only come out a normal photos but we actually surprised with the result. It's creative & different than the normal studio's photos. You know what I mean, when you go to a bridal shop, you saw the sample model photo. When you take their package, you get the photo as beautiful as the sample. But when your other friends go to the same studio, their photos almost the same like yours and the model sample too. At the end, every customer has the same photos. Don't you notice that?

We had been given a CD contains of 100+ of original photos file for us to choose only 40 from it. We really don't know how to choose & after filtered it, we still get 60+ photos that we like. xoxo.. Some of it are real funny. We shoot with beautiful flowers but didn't know why did our face look so irritating & angry with the flowers. LOL. Thanks for that copy of photo. Ok I know lot of people requested us to upload more photos, but this is the photographer rules:

"IT STILL IN PROGRESS. DO NOT EVER UPLOAD & SHOW ANY PHOTOS TO OTHERS UNTIL EVERYTHING IS DONE."

So really sorry for the time being. It needs at least 3 more weeks for them to complete it then I can posted it. Someone has published 1 of the studio photo in fb and the photographer actually was not happy with that, because nobody had asked permission from us and also from the photographer himself. Forget about that, every1 had saw it & just let it be. As for the other photos, will only out after few more weeks.

COOK & FOOD

2010-06-23T12:45:00.008+08:00

Today just wanna talk about cook & food, just for fun. xoxo.. I love food. I love cooking and eating but I don't know how to cook well & nice meal. Glad that I still know to cook simple meal and my man just love not more than that.

No I'm not going to show step by step how to cook this following meal, since this is not a special dish at all. I just want to show that I love this kind of life where we only able to do this out of the city & busy life.

1st of all, we rear 'ayam kampung' and slaughter it.

Then, my sis planting mushroom.

Chopped it - Garlic, onion, chicken, musroom, ginger ect and cooked it.

Taddaaaaa...

What special & make me happy on this is, all the raw ingredient including the ginger been planted and reared by ourselve in my hometown.

xoxo.. I actually out of idea to blog out. I love to eat everything somehow I'm a health conscious person. I'm happy to cook if I able to get fresh raw ingredient. & just wanna say that, food can make me happy. I love & enjoy my life.. ^_^

GO GREEN

2010-06-22T15:19:00.012+08:00

Just little update..

Went for some photoshooting together with the cows last weekend, weather was not hot at all.

but still.. amazingly I get my sunburn all over my shoulder and my back.

Wanna recomend a new nice place to stay & rest.. Dream World Resort, Kundasang, Ranau. ;) Nice new place, just opened last month. I didn't manage to take photo with my own camera but will upload some photos once I get it from the photographer later. The following photos just been copied from the Resort's facebook page.

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GO GREEN
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I went to a supermarket yesterday after work. Monday is 'No Plastic Bag' day in some supermarket but I was totally forgoten about it. If you really have no green bag, the supermarket still can give you plastic bag with extra RM0.20 charges. It's not because of the RM0.20, I really support the 'go green' campaign so I won't requested plastic. I'd corked up everything into my hand bag and feel funny with it. LOL.

OK yeah I know still there WAS plastics..

Just remember that, Monday is 'No Plastic Bag' day. Not only for Monday, actually it's good to practice it & ready green bag every single day. ;)

Go green & love the nature..

xoxo..

PERFECT

2010-06-18T11:46:00.004+08:00

Saw this when I arrived office this morning.

Look at the key no. 9. Someone left footprint here! LOL. Oh which tokek was trying to use my computer before I came in? It might be log in to Mudah.com.my to promote itself for sale.

And the above photo taken from the conference room in our office too. LOL. A KELUAR sign on the wall which has no door to go out at all. :))

Cute & LMAO.

I BELIEVE

2010-06-14T12:08:00.011+08:00

I believe in this.. I'm not sure about other people, but this works on me and I believe it.

If it faithed yours, then it will be yours.

My sis always say this. Of course in some things, we have to work hard and push ourself then we will get it. But in some cases, when a thing has faithed to be ours, we don't need to push & force but the things came to us beautifully. It happened to my sis past few years when she was jobless. She resigned from her previous company and took few months to rest while looking for other new job. No body not surprise with what had happened in that period, can you believe that a car came to her when she was jobless? What I mean here is her loan approved eventhough she was not working for almost 1 year. She was not serious to have that car but we don't know how's the agent did and the car suddenly been drove to the front of her house and the car then belongs to her. Of course the agent did everything coz he wanted commission but yeah that car has really faithed to be hers. Lot of people tried hard to buy something & find the best guarantor but still not approve, have you ever experienced that?

Now another same case happened here. My man had just tried to apply a job in a public listed company few months ago. He had been called for interview and he simply get the job. He has never serious & think much about the job since we had started our own business and business running half way at the moment. Beautiful things keep coming in. Guess what, he confirmed get the job with 5 figure basic salary (eventhough he still said that he has the smallest salary among all staff in the same level, sabar la ba k don't be too greedy) + house to stay + car + monthly air ticket back to KK + medical + allowances + yearly bonus + commission + good position + power + good & low profile bosses ect. What else not included? It's crazy. Everyone knew that people all over Malaysia would applied the vacancy but he is the one who get it. He never pushed or hoping but things faithed to be him and I feel proud. I'm glad that I have accepted him before he get all these offers. Money is not everything but to have a good career & able to provide stable life for family is a part of guy's ego. I just wish that everything is alright & he will have weekend and holiday once start working.

When a man are having his 1st baby, his luck (rezeki) will better than before because god had set expenses for the little him/her (baby) with the condition, that man must loyal & love to his wife and family.

I get this tips from the respected Mr. Shan and ever heard many people said this too. A good tips for young people who going to get marry. ;) I believe in this tips, with what my man & me getting now.

I had passed my 1st trimester actually & I'm holding a soccer ball on my tummy now. xoxo.. It brings blessing to us and we really thank god for it.

Be good to others.

I might not a good person, I seldom go to worship place to pray, but I always try to be good to others, and always thanks to god. I've ever asked few persons, other than saving, what will they do if they have extra money. Enjoy the money or helping others? I was surprised that ALL OF THEM answered me that they will enjoy the money. Today's people are more shellfish. It's up to them anyway, as long as I'm not. :) but I believe that our life will be good when we are not shellfish. We just have to protect ourselve coz yeah some people might take advantage on us. I didn't know why I've chosen & prefer to help others. I'm not rich but I'm happy helping others. As long as I still have money to eat, I don't mind if that person pretending forgoten to pay me back, I'm considering I've done a charity.

This is only my personal view anyway based on what had happen on me. I believe that I'm personally really lucky compare to lot of people out there. Especially when I saw a husband and a pregnant woman holding other 3 more small kids, became passengers in a crowded mini bus. I always saw that & really feel sorry. Can you imagine if you were in their life? They can leave in that hardship while we still not satisfied with what we have at the moment. I just believe that I'm really lucky, thank god.

COMPLICATED FEELING

2010-06-09T13:47:00.015+08:00

I'm still keep on asking myself, is this what I really want?

I never told people regarding the place I'm staying before. Afterall I don't like to talk bad about my own love one or my family, no matter what they are someone always related to me. Talking bad about them is only making myself more embarrassing.

I'd stayed with my sister and her family. Honestly this is the first time I would tell people that I actually never feel home staying there, but I'd spend more than 4 years staying with them. Still wanna say thank you for my sis & my in law provided a room for me, eventhough I'd prefered to stay outside. Well that's my real feeling, I never tell anyone until today but maybe that is normal feeling for a single person staying with someone who has family. It just the right time for me to move out since my nieces getting bigger. Just imagine that, the house has 3 rooms. 1 room for me sharing with 1 of my unmarried sister, 1 room for cupboards (store) and maid, and another big room fit my sis's 1 whole family. 6 person in one big room you get that? The oldest of my niece in that house is in primary 6 at the moment and going to secondary school next year. Aren't them need to have a separate room?

Yesterday, I officially moved out from that house. It's time for me to move since I already someone's wife. I packed my things happily and I was excited, until my unmarried sis came in. She stared at me for quite a while without saying any single words. She was speechless but her face was telling me thousand of lonely & sad words. My feeling changed. I didn't move very far from them, for sure we still can meet anytime but it's a totally different feeling there, different from sending a family member to study oversea. Indeed. Really really an un-explainable hard feeling. Guys who getting married might not feel this I think, I'm not sure about other ladies but for me, we really feel that way and it's hard.

A pillow that had accompanied me since I was a student 10 years ago from Taiping - Kelana Jaya - KK til now. Move with me my lovy pillow..

Moved in to the new place safely, single bed to queen size bed, boleh lah kampung-kampung.. I slept with my love one next to me but I didn't slept well and I cried for the whole night thinking of my sis expression on me yesterday evening. I know she is getting lonely & desparate to move out too. I'm sad but I hope both of us can adopt and use to it soon.

Woke up this morning, dressed up is different mirror before I came to work. It still weird for me.

I don't know how long will I stay here anyway. I don't know what other changes will happen on me. I'm not sure how will I feel tonight and the following days. At the moment I still feel sad. I become greedy and I want everyone I love around me. Can that be?

Sigh..

JUST A SIMPLE 1

2010-06-02T14:45:00.005+08:00

Just done a very simple small ceremony requested by my mum during last holiday, something like sending dowry. Only within my family & guy's side. Thanks for those who spend time to come especially to my own siblings, their kids & a friend for supporting, helping cooking & prepared things. As I said I just prefer simple & don't want to make others feel difficult. Even my brother felt guilty he unable to come back. Nothing else I need actually other than blessing & understanding from every of my family members, that's it. The following journey after this is far more important.

Ignore the background, I know it's messy.

Different culture different family will request different things. For my family, especially my mum had requested:

- 2 different types of cottons

- 2 packs of sweet

- 2 packs of red dates

- 2 stem of sugarcane

- 2 kg of pork

- 1 pair of live chicken

- 2 bottles of honey

- 2 bottles of, suppose to be lihing but been changed to sparkling juice

- cakes

- 20 boxes of cake for distribution

Nothing much here, lucky that my family didn't request thing like buffalos or set of gong. The only not-so-logic-thing here you can see is the 20 boxes of cake. What to do, just full fill what had been requested, we sent & distribute the cakes to our relatives after the ceremony.

For my dad request, he didn't request anything including any cash of 'Berian'. Yes, none. Our marriage signing is enough for him, he just wished us to be happy ever after & have a good life.

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The above cake has the most fans on that day. ^_^ Thanks for the home made baker accepted my order, it was seriously hard for me to look for home made cake during that time around. It was school holiday & wedding season. I'd ordered it from Atiqah Kitchen.

SEASON GREETING

2010-05-28T09:44:00.015+08:00

It's end of May, middle of the year. Wow.. Time pass fast.

Happy Wesak Day to all buddish in Malaysia.. I'm working today while lots of other companies are close. Hmmm.. Holiday mood.

I'd copied this from travour.com, just have a read on what Wesak Day means.

Wesak Day is the most important festivals of the Buddhists in Malaysia and fall in the month of May. It is celebrated to commemorate the birth, enlightenment and death of Lord Buddha because according to Buddhists, all the three events took place on the same lunar date. The celebration for the Wesak day begins much before the dawn when the Buddhists gather in Buddhist temples for worship all over Malaysia. The celebration is done with prayers, chants, offerings and giving alms. The Buddhist eat a vegetarian diet prior to the festival in order to cleanse and purify themselves. Doves and tortoises are released on the Wesak Day as a symbolic gesture of releasing the soul and giving up the past sins. Free meals are also given to the needy on the Wesak Day.

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Another big celebration and holiday for Sabahan in May is Kaamatan Festival. It will be next two days so just take this opportunity to wish all Sabahan Kotobian Tadau Kaamatan.

Just my silly advice, since Kamaatan always related to local alchohol drink with the word "Logop", "Kogutan", "Kalapik", "Aramai tii" which all are relate to the meaning of get drunk, just want to say that eventhough its already culture since long time ago but don't drink too much & get drunk till sleep at the road side or sleep next to the vomit. Why I'm saying that way is also because Sabahan from a certain district always been 'chop' a good drinker. What I mean here is, people ever asked me,

"Where are you come from?"

"Ranau."
"Oh kalau Ranau mustahil tidak bulih kasi habis. Minum minum minum.. Bulih itu kalo orang Ranau."

and keep on refill my glass. You see that perception, I'm tired of it. Not everyone from Ranau can drink & for those heavy drinkers, show some positive attitude to make others stop judge us in negative way. I don't know, may be some people proud to be call as a good drinker?

Boring me huh? Minum pun kana marah. xoxo.. It's not good for health ba especially the unfiltered local alchohol.. Just be grateful & thankful for the harvested product on Harvest Festival & continue for the hardwork for next planting season. & I'm wonder will I wear this type of costume some day? xoxo..

It's Rungus traditional costume, colorful.. ^_^

Proud to be Sabahan.

THE MOST STUPID PERSON IN THE WORLD

2010-05-27T10:58:00.010+08:00

Look at this thing, cute eh?

My sis requested me to bought it for her. Original price was RM15.

There is zip at the back, and it actually is a pencil case.

It's cute but I want to tell you that I just feel like to hit my head everytime I think about this.

As I said, the original price is RM15. I saw a sign wroten 2 for RM20.

Hmm ok.. I chose 2 and went straight to the counter.

"Miss, ambil 1 lagi RM20.."

"Sana tulis RM20 dua tu.."

"RM20 untuk tiga. Miss ambil satu lagi lah.."

"Oh.. Kalau gitu saya ambil satu saja lah. Saya nampak sana tulis RM20 dua."

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Confident but I was blured,

paid & went home but not satisfied,

keep complaining to myself about the sign & the shop was cheating,

they didn't practice what they'd stated,

until I realize how stupid I was 3 hours later.

Yes it wroten there 2 for RM 20 but doesn't 3 for RM20 is better?

OMG.. I'd rejected better offers & argued with the salesgirl some more. So embarrassing.

Since when I failed in shopping & mathematic so stupidly?

I think I'm going to hang myself like this.

WHAT TO CHOOSE AGAIN?

2010-05-25T12:52:00.004+08:00

Another changes again? xoxo.. Well more things will change on me within this year but I'm starting to loving it.

Since status has changed, lot of things have to think more deeper and have to consider my other half for most of the time. Even a simple thing like, I'm going back to my hometown, I have to consider to go back in-law's hometown too now. -_-" It make me feel & realize that I'm an adult now but I'm lucky so far everyone understand me. & I'm trying to do my best. Same to my other half (I still feel weird to call & introduce him as my husband) :p, his problem will be my problem too; his dillema will be my dillema too.

Both of us has started our own business since end of last year. Till to date, it running smoothly although slow but almost 30% - 40% of the progress completed. But only within this month, he gets 3 different job offers. Of course none of it had confirmed yet at the moment but it's 3 good things coming in, thank god for it! Eventhough it came not in the right timing, but we actually headache for good things, not because of jobless. Murah Rezeki..

How? We had spent big amount of money into the business, it's growing almost half way at the moment, and now damn good offer coming in. It will not based in Sabah but it offers house, car & return air ticket to Sabah every year. Wise decision needed here. We calculated what will we get, our business will reach the same income as the monthly salary for the job only after more than 1 or 2 years. Of course after that business will produce more profit, just bit suffer in this 1 to 2 years but if he accept the offer, that expected amount of RM will came to us as earlier as starting from next 3 months, but what had we pay for starting the business will just burn that way (or maybe not burn, we don't know yet). hurmm.. I just wish that I able to run the business & let him go for the offer. Eh greedy.. xoxo.. but both of us sure either will be more farer, or both of us will be farer to our parents & siblings.

It's common sense, when people willing to offer you such great offer, it means you have to ready to work like a bull. I'm just worry on that especially the regular outstation but no matter what's our final decision later, this post of mine is not for show off. I just really thank god for the good offer and record this dillema for us to remember. This will be great & may be funny history when we success 1 day.

ANOTHER CASE AGAIN!

2010-05-19T09:50:00.004+08:00

I'd ever posted this topic previously but I have to repost this again. It happen to one of my neighbourhood friend this recently, exactly the same case but different bank. Her account suddently empty, don't know where's the money goes even the bank can't detect. It's the same scheme, money been transfer online but don't know to whom and where. ~ scarry ~

Always be extra careful with online banking thingy & purchase item using credit card.

STATUS CHANGED

2010-05-18T15:54:00.014+08:00

The day I'd changed my status: 10 May 10.

xoxo.. My status changed but my life haven't changed. I didn't feel anything change, we are still in two different places, I'm still doing my own thing and my other half still doing his own thing. O_O I'm just really touch and feel like to cry when I knew that my parents & family had trusted me, followed everything I want and supported me with their full blessing. My mum even became my respected witness. She didn't complaint anything, she didn't care how hard for her to get to that far Kudat district for a signature. I know she enjoyed her trip. That was really meaningful and hard to me, I really feel touch & I'll never forget about that.

Few friends asked me very direct, I feel sad sometimes when I heard what they said but no worries I never keep the hurt feeling in my heart. I knew they'd just talked directly & I love that, I prefer that way which they'd just tell me the truth directly. I know they concern about me, they are partly joking & just want to advice but they don't know my real life. They have more experience in marriage life even some of them ever divorced & there is some good point for me to consider what they said.

"Have you thinked twice?"

This is the 1st question I get hooked when I'd told them I'm going to on-leave for signing my marriage. I have thinked about this for few months, I've asked myself why do I need to get marry. Yes we can be together eventhough we are not married but to get marry is for the children to have a proper family & cert, it's not for tighting each other. & just ask back ourself, why do we need to be single. Do we want to be single for our whole life? For sure no.

"So when is your big day?"

This is the most common question that everyone will ask. I repeat, EVERYONE WILL ASK. Does the ceremony is really important? Does it will effect my whole marriage? No right? It's just something like announcement & look after good image, wearing something beautiful & pretent to become 1 day queen but the truth is bride & bridesmaid will be busy like shit for the whole day even some are more than 1 day & will never feel like a queen or king at all. Do people really love to attend it? The truth is most of people even hope that they're not invited. No, they wish to be invite but they will give reason not to come after that. Everyone will say they are busy with their own commitment or they are in somewhere else or whatever. Have you ever attend a wedding dinner which invited almost 300 people but there was not even half were coming? I did. That was more ambarassed & wasting money, better don't invite so much people. Cost for inviting 300 people can be deposite of a house. But of course we still will do it some day due to the conservative group like my family requested it. We will full fill both side parent's request 1 by 1 from time to time, that for sure. We are planning and do our best to make it within this year, probably October or after October. We just want a simple wedding & not making other people feel difficult & we don't want to relate our hardship with other people.

"It's raining, how do you go back home? Just call your husband send & fetch you lah.."

"Adakah orang sudah kahwin masih tinggal asing-asing?"

Nothing I can answer them other than just smiling. People don't know how's my life is and I have to be strong. It's hurt enough when I think about I'm alone here without him. This is not what we want but we have no choice, both of us have goals and both of us still must work separately for temporary. I'll jobless if I stay with him out of the city, unless if his business is really busy & he needs my help. At the same time, he is not suitable to stay in the city with me if he want to do what he is doing now. We have our long term dream/goals, we just need time and patient. Once he success in what he is doing now, then we will stay together. We have lot of things to do and our target is only two years, that's it. And now I just have to take care of myself and yes I'm married but I'm still alone.

"No money? Minta lah.."

I'm glad that I'm not jobless. I'm still using my own earn money, it's enough for me & never need to request from him but we have agreed that I will be the financial controller for both of us soon.

"Have you taken your wedding studio photo?"

It cost RM4,000 for the photograph, together with the album & renting the gound for ceremony. Does that neccessary? Only view and enjoy the photos during beautiful 1st few years of marriage and after that never touch it anymore. That's my senior married friends told me and I do believe it. I know some people love that, up to them but there are more things are important than those photos which cost few thousand of RM. Preparation for the marriage is more important than preparation for the wedding. For memory purposes, I'll prefer to look for individual photographer, rent wedding gound and take some outdoor photos. It's cheaper, helping my photographer friends get business & extra income some more, & some of them even better than the wedding studio photographer.

Until today I still feel odd to use the word "my husband". I tell myself everyday that I have married but I still don't believe it. xoxo.. I don't know why but it's true. I don't feel anything, no changes, no control, no culture shock but I always feel I have someone important in my life. We need each other but we can leave & do our daily task without each other. It's more about support, trust and understanding. I still can be with my parents & family anytime I want, I still going out with my friends so do him, and we can be with together anytime we want legally without objection. I love this kind of feeling and I hope this will be the reason for us to have a long lasting marriage.

OH NO..

2010-05-15T11:33:00.003+08:00

Upset.. From my previous post, I'd just try to contact 4 home made cake baker unfortunately all 4 bakers are and will be busy for the whole month till early next month. Oh no.. I'm late to order and bit dissapointed. hsk hsk hsk.. Sabar ja lah..

WHICH 1 TO CHOOSE?

2010-05-14T10:48:00.012+08:00

I'm in dillema. Dillema for a very small and simple thing. I don't know which to choose. I'm going to order home made cupcakes, funny but it's true I'm in dillema by a simple cake for the 1st time in my life. xoxo.. Normally only order a big cake, just cut it depends on how many guest but this time, I'm thinking to get cupcakes. I have thinked about it since past few weeks, thinking to place an order yesterday unfortunately I'm still not decided yet.

1. Quantity - Guest will be around 28 person but I don't know how many cupcakes should I order. 30? 32? 38? or more?

2. Flavour - Kids are cake lover. I'm thinking to order strawberry flavour somehow I know that some of the kids (the guest) will only eat choclate cake. So what now? Chocolate flavour would be different price, or should I mix?

3. Decor - Complicated decoration for the cake will be more expensive. So what color to choose? I think I will go to red but which design?

too flowery?

This would be consider complicated design and will be more expensive.

or this?

Sweet design..

Hmm.. I should place my order within this few days otherwise I will be late.. >_<

For those who would like to order or have a view for home made cake order, can check out Pink Roses Cake and also Deana Cake and also Atiqah's Baking. For KK area only. ;)

CUTE THINGS

2010-05-13T12:50:00.009+08:00

Nothing much in this post, just for updating my blog. Showing some photos, cute things that I'd bought for last month.

Doesn't the above things are cute? ;) I'd bought 1 set last year for my niece and my mum told me that my small nieces were snatching and crying for it. Well I have a lot of my niece and I only bought 1 set that time. LOL. My mum requested me to buy some more sets but unfortunately it was sold out. Saw it was new stock last few weeks then I quickly grabbed it.

Doesn't the above thing is cute too? xoxo.. When you pull up the rabbit,

it toothpicks inside. ^_^ Toothpick not getting dirty this way & it's cute.

Colorful sepit baju..

for clipping underwear. xoxo.. Actually it use for clipping documents.

The above actually is a pen. The toy on it was just so cute, is for 1 of my niece.

That's it. xoxo.. ;)

ALL PLAN ARE CHANGED

2010-05-12T16:31:00.007+08:00

This post gonna talk about my resolution / wishes / plan for this year. It's May, middle of the year but why do I only mention about it now?

1. I never mentioned about it end of last year nor early of this year.

2. I'd ever said that resolution and plan can be made any time, not only during new year.

3. I'm actually not going to tell people publicly about my plan or wishes but today I wroten down this post, it's because I'm going to change and restructure my plan due to some reason.

Jan

- Get my letter of appoinment and change my job. Checked.

- Prepare for CNY, I mean prepare budget for CNY. Checked.

- Activate my business. Checked but really slow progress.

Feb

- Expenses for CNY. Checked eventhough not that succeed. What I mean here is I only managed to help and spend little of my money to my family during the event.

- Suppose to buy new TV for my family. NOT CHECKED! Damn.

- Repair & make my hair do. Not checked since I've lot of other thing are more important than this.

March

- MegaSale on March & get a good quality bag for myself. Checked.

Apr

- Targeted business start to get stable in this month and expend it. Not checked due to some reason.

May

- Targeted more income from business & ready for house deposit. It's May now & this is not 'checked' at all.

June

- Change my handphone. If you saw my handphone, oh my.. LOL.. It's outdated & full of scrathes not joking but since I'm aiming the one that is expensive, so this plan have to postpone.

- Book & plan for a vacation. This plan have to change.

July

- Renew Passport. Not going anywhere this year & not going to renew.

- Get a Guess watch for myself. Oh yes I'm aiming a Guess watch but this plan have to postpone. There's some other things are more important than this.

Aug

- Try to arrange loan for a new house. Since business not stable yet, unable to do this within this time around.

- Preparation for my enggagement. Plan changed.

Sept

- Expend business again.

- Get enggage. Plan changed.

Oct

- Vacation. This plan unable to be done within this year.

- Get myself a laptop. Will think about this again.

Nov & Dec

- Preparation for Wedding for next year.

If you can see it's more to financial management, yeah coz I want to get everything with my own earned money. I just don't want to overspend during the month, that is why even buying a single bag is inside my plan. Some people just said why don't I request it from bf. I just don't understand why today's life, people allow people to become so materialistic. For me if you love that person than don't make him suffer. It's his responsibility to take care of the financial for the family after married, not during couple. Nanti kalau tidak jadi kahwin & after break mengungkit lagi kana kisas.

That's only my own opinion anyway. Now every of my plan changed. Will only announce here later why everything has changed & I just hope my new plan will bring a new better life for me.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

2010-05-08T12:35:00.002+08:00

To all mothers in the world, Happy Mother's Day..

Dear mum:

Sorry can't go back to celebrate Mother's day with you this year but you are always the best mum in my heart & always love you. I'm proud of you mum. Mother's day is not the only day to celebrate, for me everyday is Mother's day, surely will going back regularly to be with you coz I always miss you.

Dear soon to be mum in law:

I don't know what to give you, I have nothing & I'm nobody but I'll always love you & proud of you too. I'm really touch with everything you've done to me. & thanks for producing your special son. xoxo..

Dear myself:

Happy Mother's Day too.. ^_^

SCORE A

2010-05-05T11:28:00.027+08:00

There was 1 afternoon when I was study in KL before, My x-housemate and I were watching the 60's / 70's video clip (I'd forgoten the singer & song) and we actually been amused by it. Well the fashion, hair, action was old style. 1 of my housemate just told me that, after 20 years from now, the younger generation will feel amused with today's fashion and video clip too. At that time everything will be in technology even a singer or actress might be a virtual 3D person moving and dancing on the TV screen. Yes it's not imposibble.

I'd been invited to join an e-learning seminar (score A program) by my aunt. Well in my mind it might be a multilevel marketing which is so popular now adays. You can know it when some1 suddenly call and approched you nicely, and insist you to go somewhere together with them. Checked out from internet before accepted the invitation and oh yes it's true, it's a multi level marketing business. I know my aunt wanted to drag me to join, she has a very good approach and at the same time I was interested to know more about their product too. So, I'd attended the seminar together with her last night.

Overally I love the product and overally I unlike the speakers. Sorry to say but this is only my own opinion. I know they are working hard to earn money too but their minded and the way they tried to drag people in was clearly showed they are so so so desperately greedy.
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ok score A is a good product. Because of they knew that today's kids love technology, this program is just trying to make the learning process more interesting using internet / technology. What the parent need is just ready a computer / labtop, broadband for internet connection and register score A account.
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Parents have to BUY a password from this company for the student to log in. The system stored notes and pass year questionaires, for primary 1 until form 5 in every subjects. They had arranged chapter by chapter very well for the student follow the syllabus and stored pass year question (UPSR, PMR and SPM) since pass 16 years. It means they'd stored the exam question from 1993 until last year's question.

Student can check and do their revision by just checking the notes and there will be so call i-teacher too. What you need to do is just choose you feel the most hensom/ beautiful teacher.

I was studied in IT field before and our University was a virtual university which mean we was learning via e-learning. We didn't need to go to class, just online to attend class and so do the lecturer. Want to know what happen with this kind of learning style? IT DOESN'T WORK and there is no virtual University in Malaysia anymore till today. My University was the last did it. I still remember it was the time, every student logged in and attended the class so do the lecturer logged in and gave tutor. Everybody kept quite accept the lecturer talking alone without seeing us in the system, and when the lecturer asked question no body answer. You know what had happened? Every student had log in the class just for attendance and then went to toilet break for 2 hours till the class finished. You know what I mean, every1 escaped. It was damn boring tutorial and really doesn't work as good as face to face class.

So do this i-teacher as mentioned by score A program. I'd tried to logged in the demo using the demo ID and tried it. Yes the i-teacher given response, answered question but it does not give a really satisfied answer sometimes especially when I asked stupid question. LOL.

Other than notes and this "clever" teacher, student also can picked a composition title, wrote a composition and sent to the system. The staff or so-called "teachers" behind the system will check, mark and return it back to student within two days.

Regarding the questionaires, student can attend trial exam which has timer follow the exact exam time. The result will then send to parent's handphone and also will showed under a "notice board" in the system. Every student's result from every part of Malaysia will be show there then the student can know what is their ranking. Good? That is the founder's idea. Tuition price for a student in the city:

and by register score A,

For 2 children RM600, subsciption for 6 months + RM50 for the activation.

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The student can do revision on every subject with this system, but I feel that student still need tuition, parent guidance and may be this score A can be another extra exercises for student.

or, they have promoted another package

take ePartner Saver Package.

Now, this was the most disgusting part. Talking about the RM RM RM that you can earn from this ePartner Saver Package.

"If you have no kids, It's OK. This is for you. Very simple! You just have to follow 2 steps to get income!"

"Step 1, share and look for only 2 downline then you can get bla bla bla.."

"Step 2, look for another 2 downline to join then you can get bla bla bla.."

If you want to know, they'd highlighted this part and for them this is the most interesting part.

Testimonial Speaker 1:

"I was working in KL before, working with a bank. My salary was around RM2,000 - RM3,000. When I came back here, I was jobless and I didn't know what to do. Found out that vacancy in Sabah only offered very small salary. I'd tried to join a lot of multilevel marketing but this Kenshido marketing is the best and it works for me. I'd received RM5,000 for the 1st month I'd joined."

Testimonial Speaker 2:

"There are 3 types of person.

1, when they hear about this, they opened their mind and quikly find way to join it & change their life.

2, when they hear about this, they will ask you to do 1st and look for them when u success.

3. when they hear about this, they'll say we are cheating and totally condemn us.

Now, which 1 are you?"

Testimonial Speaker 3:

"I was a marketing officer before selling property. My salary and commision could reach til RM8,000 per month. I quited my job and do this Kenshido marketing full time and only the 1st month, I get more than RM2,000. That was starting, doesn't that great? I have no diploma and no degree but I can do it."

Testimonial Speaker 4:

"I was an engineer before. I worked for the company more than 1 year. My salary was RM2,200 for the starting but it was not enough for my monthly expenses at all. I worked very hard for the company but my increment was only RM130. It stil not enough for me, I quited my job and start this and do you know how much I get now? RM10,100. What for work with other people? Don't you have a dream? Join us now!"

Nothing wrong with the marketing system actually, but the speakers were really wrong for me. They are not a good example at all. I, as the potential customer doesn't want to hear about this la.. I need to hear the testimonial about the product not your income.

Dear Testimonial Speaker 1:

Oh you really don't know what to do until you join most of the multilevel marketing in Malaysia. It's not easy to look for a good job in Sabah somehow actually there is good job in Sabah. Anyway, good luck.

Dear Testimonial Speaker 2:

I'm not in this 3 person that u mentioned. I'm interested with the product not the marketing or so called "business" that u introduce. I will rather just take the normal portal only for using the program than become your downline and then find my own downline too. I know u just geram with those people who don't believe you & don't want to be your downline, & you are trying to insinuate. It's not that I don't believe the income. I know it's true but I know it's not that easy as you talk. What will happen if you actice but your downline is not active? Your income will stop my friend. To get such income I have to spend more to become your donline, then I have to find my downline, then I have to make sure my downline is actice and have their downline too & so on. Otherwise, it wasted money wasted energy & wasted time. If not serious, better don't join. This is not business at all, this is just a marketing strategy by the brillian people. Brilliant people own the business not you. They'd just using you to become their marketing people without hiring. You work more then you gain more for yourself, that's it.

Dear Testimonial Speaker 3:

You are not a good example. So do you encourage people to quit their job & join you? You know how hard to find even 1 downline but you cheating people. From your RM8,000 salary to RM2,000 income? Good.. I can give a same testimonial like you too. I can simply told people this is my car at the moment.

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This program is just good for kids if you have kids, then share with other people preferable those who have kids too. It's something like market & share it slowly from time to time. Not rushing & desperately drag people to join. You will easily dispointed that way. Don't only see the money figure, money is evil. It's up to people whether they want to join it or not, they want to do it full time or part time.

Dear Testimonial Speaker 4:
You are a great speaker, congrats to that but 1 thing I want to say is, people don't join your Kenshido marketing doesn't mean they would like to work for other people for their whole life. You are working with Kenshido founder too, aren't you? You do marketing for him. It's not your product Mr. If you are really brilliant, come out a new product and start your own multilevel marketing business. That is really yours. For me, I'm working not only for money. I'm learning things here. I've just imagined that my salary is RM10,000 here but the company never pay me so because they'd deducted for my learning fee and that imagination really work for me. Where can I buy such knowledge and experience? Even the best bookshop in the world doesn't sell it. And I work with other people doesn't mean I satisfied with my current situation. I have my dream but not with joining your Kenshido marketing. It's better for me to start a real business myself than joining you.
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What testimonial we really would like to hear is, tell us something good about your product not your salary. I'll clap my hand if those young testimonial speaker had told us how their younger brother & sister's result has improved but it was not. I was yawning and feel it was disgusting.
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Hey young people, try to be open minded in a right way. Be realistic, not competing. We can compete but do compete in a correct way too. When you earn this much, don't try to spend THIIIIIISSSSS much.. When you love to spend THIIIIIIIIISSSS much, that is why you'd been attracted by the virtual money figure easily. Well for those who joined any multilevel marketing, I'm not condemn you but I'll just wishing you good luck.

APC

2010-04-29T12:41:00.028+08:00

I was away for 2 days conference in Sutera Habour.

My boss registered my name for the conference and instructed me to attend it. I was feeling like not interested to attend it in the first place but I was shocked and changed my mind when I saw the fee was RM1,150 per person. Somehow, thanks a million to my boss. I know not everyone have the opportunity like me, who want to pay RM1,150 freely for you to attend a course huh? Knowledge goes to me not the payer. I'm very lucky, I've just worked here for few months, I'd been sent to a good conference while others attent it for the 1st time after they'd worked here for 5 years.

Back to normal today, the only thing that I remember from there is only the food and Micheal Jackson performance.

Just kidding. Honestly I've learned a lot of things in that 2 days conference. MJ performance is only 1 small part but what to do, that is the thing that most sticked in my mind till now. Of course I don't remember everything been taught that is why we have been given notes and I took my own notes too. Will share some meaningful statements here which I think very good but I'm not going to elaborate more here. U might feel like some of it are not related but if you want to know more then u can attent the conference next year. ;)

Our 1st speaker was Dr. Edwin Varo. Who is Dr. Edwin Varo?

He has the title Dr., someone who has 2 basic degree, 2 MBA, 1 PHD and ever worked in 6 different countries. He has a son who studying psychology at the moment. Having his own business at the moment and he is a great speaker.

Well I just love a speaker / tutor / lecturer who always tell and share their pass experience. It would be more interesting speak that way and here are some of the interesting (for me) point.
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- Love and kiss urself every morning. U can't love others if u don't love urself.

- Life is not about how we start, it's all about how it finish.

- There are 8 different types of intelligence. Having lot of A's in school exam is only 1 or 2 of the type of intelligence.

- Forgive people, forget the pass.

- Bring Joy to others.

- Don't compete, be realistic. Today's people are more materialistic and it's unhealthy.

- Who is the best negotiators in the world? Answer: Children.

- There is someone who celebrated and having Failure Night Dinner.

- Never say 'I don't have enough time'. Manage activity within the times given.

- Ray Kroc is the person who start Mc Donald.

- Chairwoman and CEO of Pepsi is Inda Nooyi.

- Good or bad, the starter is ourselves.

- Knowledge is for everyone. Who never share their knowledge to others goes no way.

- Never met supplier alone unless if u are the boss.

- France people can have their lunch for 4 hours. Even food they'd romance.

- Avoid plastic plant near 2 u, live plant is the best.

- Eagle can live up to 70 years but it has trouble in his life when its age reach 40 due to heavy thick feather and its mouth getting more bent down make it hard to hunt food.

- In reality, organization does not care about us. The only person responsible for our career is ourselve.

For the following photo, is regarding the coke-cola company who wanted to enter Arab market last time. Because the Arab people didn't know how to read english, so he made poster and pasted all over the place but what had happen was,

Our 2nd speaker was Ching Lee Hwa but I didn't manage to take her photo. Her point:
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- What is the last time u walk with ur barefoot on the grass?

- 8 hours for family, 8 hours for work and 8 hour for health.

- Your development determine the future.

- Some1 sitting under the shade today is because some1 planted the tree long time ago.

- 7% is verbal communication, 93% is non verbal communication. From the 93%, 38% is from vocal tones and 55% is through facial expression.

- Different people has different type of character. Study people from their character and work follow their style. I'm a supine person, my boss is melancholy person and my bf is choleric person. ;)

- Good food, sleep, quality time & exercise.

The most surprising session was our lunch and tea break. Well it's Sutera Habour and the food was always nice but the waiter & waitress's service was really2 slow & unprofessional. Sorry to say that but it's true. What had happened was the food was late for most of the time, we were standing almost 5 minutes just waiting for them to refill the food and drink while our tea break was only 15 minutes including toilet break. I didn't mind about the food but at least the hot drink, the ballroom was really cold for me indeed.

Except the 2nd day's lunch, it was special & even has dance performance, lucky draw and fashion show. Wow what a seminar but anyway, the fashion show was just an advertisement. They just grabbed the opportunity to do marketing & their target was just working women. Well yeah the Micheal Jackson Sabah's performance was incredible for me that is why it still sticked in my mind. I believe so do the other attendees.

MJ in action.

Fashion show. I captured lot of photos and I think I should open another different post just to show the fashion 1 by 1.

For me this is the most gorgeous model & the most pretty baju kurung that afternoon.

Some dance performance.

OK back to the class..

The last speaker was Hjh. Rosmawati Hj. Lasuki from YS Group. She only given a short but very inspiring talk, more on her own life and experience. Nothing else I think about her when I saw her name as 1 of the speaker. I just remembered that, I always called her office to catch her and her PA like hell when I worked with my x-company. And yesterday, I'd just sit and hear she talked.

"It's not because of I'm a speaker,

but I just want to share my journey.

I hope others can follow my footpath,

or do better than me."

Overally, I'm happy with the conference. I've learned lot of things indirectly and from this conference, I saw my own big weaknesses. I just don't like to be social with people I don't know. What I mean is there are over 100 people who attended the conference, and I'd only manage to get to know little of new people. I don't know why I'm not friendly enough, I'm not interested and I admit I really new in my current profession. I'm not use to a lot of things yet and I'm still under learning process. I'm not sure how far will I go but I'm looking forward for another free workshop/seminar/conference/course. ;)

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

2010-04-24T19:51:00.007+08:00

Something weird happen today. It's secret but I know it will be a big thing but no matter what,

today is 1 year aniversary of this blog. Happy birthday blog! Enjoy life..

I still remember, when I started this blog, I just felt like to publish this blog but not for people to read. Weird but it's true. I didn't have much confident, I don't want to be popular *cough*, I don't want attention, I was worry of strangers, I was not so confident & strong with what I wrote but after 1 year which is today, then I realize that it's nothing much and nothing to worry actually as long as I didn't touch something sensitive and publish too much detail. This is my personal blog afterall, I'm trying to write about my own life (but I know some post still not regarding my own life), I don't have much readers yet and I'm comfirtable with it.

Just a short brief, why I started this blog with 'Enjoyable Life'. Just a simple answer from me, I just want to have a place for me to write down anything in my mind, record anything memorable thing and put my comment / opinion on anything around me. I'm someone who really think a lot when I saw and experienced something. Really really think a lot but doesn't mean I'm a good decision maker.

There are always up and down in everyone's life. Sometimes it's just make us exhausted but no matter how, I still enjoy my life with every problem, that is how the way I make myself happy. Odd but yeah I enjoy problems cause no matter how big our problem is, life still must go on and, if we open our eyes widely to look outside, there might be more people out there have much more bigger problems than us. Absolutely. I have nothing, I'm not rich of money but I'm happy, I know I'm always lucky and I believe that I'm rich of friends, love and family loves.

1 year achievement:

Added more blogger friends on my blog list. It's fun and interesting for me to read other people's blog. Other than that, I don't think I'd improved anything in my blog. It's just the same layout with last year, just the color is different. I didn't decorate anything, I have no laptop for me to have so much time to do creative photoshop. Honestly most of my posting had been made from my office and I believe that (this is my own opinion) simple layout is the best and easy to read. As I said, I don't want to be popular anyway.

Friend's Engagement

And today, attended a friend's engagement. Congrats Beryl & Mr. Dusinol. I'd tried my hard to attend it, I'd told myself to be more supportive and I will try my best to attend any function been invited. I take my father's advice, he just told me that: If u invite people on ur wedding, make sure u attend when they invite u back. It's not adat nor wanting an image but it is a respect.

Woh.. I'm not married yet but for sure I'll try my best to attend every invitation, it's a respect. So I'd canceled my plan to Kudat today, went out early morning from home and take a bus from home to KK and change another bus to Donggongon. This is what I saw in the bus..

Sila Ke Belakang -->

Sila Pastikan Anda Mendapat Minuman Yang Tidak Boleh Diminum Dan Makanan Yang Tidak Boleh Dimakan.
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I didn't take much photos, not in the mood to capture more photo today. Everyone have more bigger SDLR camera hanging on their turtle neck but overall, I'm happy to meet my old friends.

This is not my friend.. It's just a cute piggy jumping and running around the 'soon to be bride' house compound.
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We arrived a bit late and they'd just finish the dicussion sesion so we have nothing to busy body. We'd been invited to have our lunch and most of the activities are just chit chating and drinking session.
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I was totally out from alchohol today. Sorry guys, I would like to join and have fun but I will not drink. Will only let you know why later.
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Met another friend Hendry today. The last I' heard about him was, he was sick and stayed in his kampung for treatment. Glad that saw him today and he is in good condition, I mean in good health with a fatter body. No matter what, today is a happy saturday. ^_^ Hope you have one too..

CHIKEN POX

2010-04-22T15:40:00.007+08:00

Other than blogging, I love to read other people's blog too. As every blogger / people has experienced different journey of life, it's interesting for me to read & know more about them especially those who has ever leave in different country & experienced different culture. Some of them even used very good words and good humor to keep their blog interesting, well I have to learn and try my best on that.

The purpose of this entry of mine is just to share a story of mine which I feel funny when I remember about it, just related to this post from Lizee's blog. It's regarding Chicken Pox. :)

It was 10 years ago. (Oh man.. I don't realize this was 10 years ago!) It was just 2 weeks before my 4th sister's wedding day. Ok before that, just for ur info I have 4 elder sisters and only 1 elder brother. Yeah I'm the youngest and for ur info again, the 'nieces' that I'm going to mention here will be my 3rd sister's child.

Back to the story. It was 2 weeks to my 4th sister's wedding day. My elder niece came back home from school and we get to know that she'd got chiken pox from her classmate! hmm ok..

1 more week to my 4th sister's wedding day, the elder niece passed the pox to her younger sister and her mum (my 3rd sister) too! I still remember my 4th sister was laughing and teased them that they couldn't dressed and make up beautifully during her big day.

2 days before my 4th sister's wedding, WTF me and my 4th sister started to get some cute pox! LOL. I was ok but my 4th sister had knocked down 1 whole day before her wedding day because of high fever. LOL.. I still remembered that I was the one who helped her sweep some cream on her pox & she did the same to me. More and more relatives arrived our home but both of me and my 4th sister been isolated and we slept together since no one was braved enough to stay nearer to us. And she had a unique wedding day which was a chiken pox bride on her big day and my elder niece had the most beautiful skin at that day due to her chiken pox was fully recovered. Child skin are cure easily.

Sweet memory when I recall that every moment. Everyone has the chance to get chiken pox but both of us just get it on a "right time". Some people even said that my 4th sister will have no 1st night on her 1st day wedding coz of her husband might don't want to get chiken pox too. LOL.. Sorry for no photo of that here coz having chiken pox is not beautiful anyway but my sis was still beautiful on her wedding day.

Me and my 4th sister ended that chiken pox season without passed it over to other people eventhough we met and spend time with so much people during her wedding.

WHERE IS MY GIFT?

2010-04-20T14:18:00.013+08:00

I just want to share this and give some of my own opinion.

Last weekend, I went back to my hometown and I'd been asked by one of my niece:

Niece: "Aunt, where is my birthday gift?"

Me: oppss.. I actually remembered his birthday but I didn't buy anything for him this time. Cover malu, "I err.. Hutang dulu. I'll give you on my next trip coming back."

Niece: "Why u forgoten this time? U always remember my birthday every year."

Me: "... ..."

Oh my.. I feel sorry with what he said and feel. I never forget, I remember it every year, it just I didn't spend time to look for a gift this time. And he continued:

"Aunt, u buy PSP for me as a birthday gift."

What?!! Wow you see today's kids. They are more update on the technology and here's my view:

I actually regret to teach and influenced my nieces to the technology in their early age. Since I was studied in IT field last time, I thought technology is good. I'd taught my family and encouraged them to buy a computer at home. The conclusion for today is, they can't live without a computer. The usage of the computer for them is only for playing game and online, that's it but they can't leave without it. Adult can understand that starring at computer too long is not good for eyes sight and health but child never listen and never bother about that.

Now most of my niece requested their mum (my sis) buy a laptop for each of them and they'd requested a very powerful one tho. Do you think they use it for homework? No.. For homework only a small part and most of the time they play game and surfing internet. They requested a powerful one for them to install and run powerful 3D games. Now they know and surfing the internet themselve. But without any guide, no one knows what are they seaching and surfing! Doesn't that really worrying? They are not my child but I'm really worry. There are too many untrue things and people on the net, even me myself sometimes doesn't talk honest on the net. What for to talk honest to a stranger without seeing their face?

There is more technology now adays but less communication. Everyone communicate via the technology but seldom meet face to face, even some people are more prefer to sit inside their house watching the screen (TV and computer) rather than go out talking to their neighbours. Yeah there are some people who don't know and don't bother whose their neighbours are, that's today's life style.

And for me, keep in touch with our family via the technology is not enough. Just ask our parents, I'm sure they will be more prefer and happier if we can go back home to visit them instead of only call them through 3G or webcam. Of course some people might said that technology is the cheapest and easy way to communicate but for me, I prefer save my money for the fare to go back home. Yes I do include the fare in my monthly budget & expenses. It's our parents and family what, no harm to spend more for them. So do with our friends, it's better meeting face to face rather than just forwarding email, sms and greet on the facebook.

Technology has the advantages for development but reallity, TV and computer are unhealthy and made people more lazier especially for small kids. Even online shopping can make us lazy but sadly we can't avoid, even in primary school have a computer class.

I walked around the mall, looking for a gift for my niece but I get none. It's not because nothing sell in the mall but I've no idea and don't know what to give as you can see today's kids are not into sport, they are not into reading, they are not into activity, they are more to technology even read articles, play soccer, fishing, chess, ping pong, puzzle, farming, barbie doll game is all in the computer. It's more easier, not boring and doesn't need any moves..It's not healthy anyway and I'm still searching for a suitable gift. No I will not choose for a game or technology thingy for them.

Cool war game is in the computer and today's kids are so good at it but what happened when the teenagers been sent to Khidmat Negara camp?

They were crying and wanted to go home.

BEAUTIFUL KK

2010-04-17T11:46:00.006+08:00

It's spring Season in Sabah! Wheee.. ^_^

Ok it's not spring season, it's just the season of tabebuia. Some people call it 'sakura' but actually this tree is call tabebuia tree.

This tree had been planted at most of the places in Kota Kinabalu and now it's the season for it to bloom. Yes the whole tree and the whole street of the tabebuia tree are blooming and my bf told me that he felt that he was in Korea. o_O

I didn't manage to capture a good and beautiful photos. The above photo had been captured after raining yesterday morning. Just simply clicked the camera and then cross the road rushing to office.

Falling flower all over the ground under the tree.

Congrats to DBKK.. Planting this tree for the lanscape in KK really make me happy when this tabebuia is blooming. xoxo..

Appreciate beautiful things and nature around you. Photos I'd taken and upload here are not pretty enough. Just come to KK yourself to see the beauty of it with your own eyes. It's true really beautiful than in these photos and you will feel like you are in Korea. LOL.

THE UNIQUE OF SABAH'S NEWS PAPER

2010-04-15T11:13:00.011+08:00

I'm proud to be Sabahan.

This post is just showing more photos and something unique about Sabah local news paper which you will not see in other states. ;)

These are Sabah local established independent news papers.

1. Daily Express

2. Sabah Times

English version - Sabah Times

English version - Daily Express

Bahasa Malaysia - Sabah Times

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Bahasa Malaysia - Harian Express (Daily Express)

Business news..

Sport news..

And news in Kadazan Dusun language in Sabah Times.. ;)

They have game some more..

News in Kadazan Dusun language in Daily express..

Comis by local artist. One of the most popular artist in Sabah is Langkawit but today's comic was drawed by Lopung.
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and.. There is daily market rubber price too (on the top of the comic). ;)

When I read news paper, I always turn to the sport pages 1st, which records people's accomplishments. The front page has nothing but man failures - by Earl Warren

I know some people will turn to 4D page 1st.. ^_^

I DON'T KNOW

2010-04-14T16:49:00.009+08:00

Just a lesson I'd learned..

When I entered my 1st company (my 1st job), on the 1st day the boss called me into his room and brief me some rules in the company. Until today I still really remember something very good that he had told me,

"Whatever people asked u, never answer people I DON'T KNOW because it will end there and things will never settle."

Since then I really take note on that and I've thinked more than twice everytime I didn't know about something but avoid to give people that answer. Of course don't simply give a wrong answer, don't say you know if you don't know, the best and safe answer is "I'll double check" or "I'll find out". Indirectly, it pushed us to know and find out more things which is good for us.

To be frank my readers, don't you feel unsatisfied and a bit annoying everytime people answer you they don't know?

Honestly yes I am.

Statistic saying that the most annoying answer in the world is "whatever..", and for me, I repeat for me personaly, I don't like people just simply answer "I don't know", unless it is a thing that he/she really has no idea.

Why I'm saying that way coz I'd met some people who are just lazy to find the real answer, lazy to co-operate and they just simply answer they don't know before try to find out the thing. Luckily I'm only someone who very small here. If I'm a boss, I'll definetly not allow my staff answer me 'I don't know' just like my x-boss do and yes, I'm not going to encourage my future kids use that word as an answer too.

SPOILED MY DAY

2010-04-10T10:37:00.006+08:00

Something and some people has spoiled my day today. I really unhappy but till now I didn't scold anyone coz I'm respect them. Just express it here coz I don't think I've done anything wrong.

Thing is like this..

Yesterday evening, our office received a notice from the management telling that electricity power will be shut down from 6am til 10am for some maintainance purposes. I get the notice from a collegue, then I'd sticked it on the notice board.

This morning, I still came early. When I reached office, there are two (2) staffs sat inside reading news paper in the dark. Once my foot steped in, they'd asking why I didn't tell them about the power supply will be off. They'd said that if they knew it they'll come bit late since other staffs whose knew it came late too. I'd told that the notice was on the notice board, they still blaimed me didn't inform them. This made me hot.

WTF. One of the guy staff, ok I understand his wife admitted in the hospital now and he is taking care 4 of his children. May god bless his wife and I understand that he just wish that it's better if he can spend one more hour with his children. But another one, I just can comment "gosh.." If people cooked meal for you, you still want people feed it into your mouth? I was pretending cool but actually hot and nearly asked them to just throw the notice board into the South China Sea.

What for we put a notice board if never want to use it in a right way? Who suggested to buy and stick the notice board on the wall in the first place? Tell me what's the purpose of notice board. I'D STICK THE NOTICE ON THE NOTICE BOARD BUT THEY STILL BLAIMED ME DIDN'T INFORM THEM! KEEP ON OFFENDED WHEN TALKING TO OTHER STAFFs! Wow..

Another thing is, we'd signed our appointment letter and WORKING HOUR is 9am - 5pm Monday to Friday while 9am - 1pm on Saturday. It's our responsibility to be in the office DURING that office hour, aren't we? Eventhough you know there will be no power supply til 10am, we still MUST be in the office during the working hour, at least stand by to answer phone call. I knew about the notice but I still came 9am what. Jeezzz.. Others came late is their own business lah. What for you want to follow?

Yes I'm unhappy but I just keep quite didn't say anything, pretending I've done wrong coz I respect them. As I've ever said before, most of my collegues are veterant. But if anyone of my collegue check out and read this, I just want to advise that please hit and throw the notice board for me. The notice board is useless. Thank you.

BLOCKING

2010-04-09T10:46:00.005+08:00

I'm exhausted with some public people. Sorry to say but I don't understand lot of people and things. Today's life, seems like everyone is more and more shellfish. I admit I'm shellfish too sometimes to protect myself but I still have the little heart and think about others. This is very simple, logic and common sense.

1. When we want to enter lift, bus, train or where ever, aren't we suppose to wait and let people come out 1st then only we have space to go inside? I don't understand why some people just rush to go into the lift or bus before other people come out. It blocked and stucked others inside unable to come out.

2. Some people came out from the bus, lift or any room, they just think that as long as their foot is outside the door then they'd done their mission. Hey, can't you look behind if there's other people want to go out too? Standing in front of the door is really blocking k.

3. Some people paying bill on the counter. They paid and get the balance and then arrange their documents, money, purse or anything in front of the counter and it takes at least 10 second to done it. Yeah there is no wrong to arrange your thing but can you arrange at the side of the counter?

4. There is no sign on any esculator in Sabah but we suppose to stand on the left side of the esculator, left some space to let other people pass by on the right hand side, not occupying the whole esculator. Every people who ever stay in KL knew that and I think it's a good practice.

5. People knew this but they still making the same mistake. I'm not driving but I saw that some drivers still love to drive on the fast lane eventhough they are driving slow and let other cars passed by on the left lane.

6. Buses in the city just love to stop anywhere at the road side eventhough there's no bus stop. Don't understand some of the passanger just so lazy to walk a bit farer and they love to keep on pressing the button inside the bus so that the bus can stop at the road side. U might not believe but it's true a public bus can stop more than 10 times all along the roadside just 1km distance. Car followed at the back of this bus must be very patient.

It's not a good practice. We can know the level of minded for those people from the above action. I might put my brain on my knee but I don't know where's those people put their brain on. It's common sense and suppose to think for the logic not to block other people.

KAMPUNG LIFE

2010-04-07T12:42:00.011+08:00

Just showing some photos in this entry. It's my home town. It's nothing, simple yet relax.

Kampung house during CNY. Rumput malu pun nampak lawa juga sometimes. ^_^

Early in the morning.. The corn tree today, all been bited by the neighbour's hen and cock.

Clean & fresh air.. This is just around 20 degree celcius.

It still hot in the afternoon but it's really blue blue sky.

Acting strong..

I'm amused with the above and following photo but i don't know why I still snap them. The worm is quite big and two worms on a same small flower plant.

I am who I am. Some one came from kampung yet proud of myself and my background. Offended few people this recently. I am who I am, sturborn enough and strong standpoint. I know lot of people don't believe and will say I'm someone boring and talking non-sense but I believe in myself. I'm planning my life & I know I will be better than others. Just intented to advice others coz i'm concern but people think differently.

DO SOME VISITING

2010-04-05T11:08:00.004+08:00

Oh it's April. Didn't post something for quite some time. Know why? I was busy read other people's blog. ^_^ Yes, read before write. When I found an interesting blog, I will read from their 1st post (some of them even start from 2006) til the latest post. wow it takes very long time but I still read and never miss every single post especially those I'd follow, linked and listed under my blog list. ;)

Well I'm a ladies.. u know.. sometimes just love to busy body with other people life. LOL. No lah actually every people has their successfullness in their life. No body is perfect but everyone has at least 1 speciality. Me, just visit their blog, get some idea, inspire them, combine it and imagine it on myself. LOL. I'm a day dreamer.

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Blog that I'd visited:
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Some are career woman,

Oh yes who doesn't feel proud if have a successful career. People will respect you but I still prefer to own a business rather than work for other people. :p

Some are hot chicks,

Haha guys might love this too. Every ladies love to be beautiful and I have no chances to dress beutifully follow the fashion when I was in early 20's. I was a student, blur about fashion and not affordable. So now when I have my own money, I think it still not too late to be a beautiful aunt. LOL.

Some are housewife,

Oh yes I would love to have my own family someday but I need tips and idea indeed especially regarding how to handle a child. And yeah I love cooking and healthy food too.

Some people travel a lot,

Interesting & good tips from there and can be ready for my vacation some day. ;) Don't ask me when please. LOL.

Some blogs are online business,

Support my friends and I can buy stuff online now. And I would love to have an online business too someday. ;)

Some people just make their blog as a diary,

Wroten happiness and up & down moments. Yeah sometimes we as a blogger can't control ourself to write more. This is the place we express our feeling somehow, I always feel I'm lucky.

Some people used very deep and good words,

Oh salute them. Keep it up guys.

I'm still searching and keep on looking more interesting blog to read. Once I found it, will linked it under my blog list for my reader to visit too. Cheers ~

RUBBER HAS GOOD PRICE

2010-03-25T14:15:00.004+08:00

I have friends in rural area. Yeah I start keep in touch with them since I’d celebrated Christmas together with them. Related post is HERE. Most of them are rubber tapper.

I’d called one of them yesterday to ask how are they in kampung and they told me this:

“We worked hard to tap rubber, sold it to Lembaga Getah but we are not been paid directly. Lembaga Getah told us that they have no money to pay us and we have to wait for few weeks, even the private company told us that way. Our rubber trees are changing leaves at the moment too, we will get less rubber for this coming three months.”

“Why they have no money to pay you? Demand for rubber is so high and good price at the moment.”

“We had been told that, Lembaga Getah Sabah only get budget RM1 million per week to pay rubber tapper. They want to avoid robbery and we have to wait our turn to be paid.”

Wow.. I was so sorry to hear that. Kampung people have soft heart and they are not aggressive to fight but not suppose to take advantage on them. Even a normal gold shop is working hard to have a good security, why can’t Lembaga Getah? Rubber is so expensive at the moment and rubber from whole Sabah should can sell more than RM1 million.

Last time, Lembaga Getah come to rural area themselves to collect rubber weekly and paid cash to the rubber tapper. When rubber price was increased, some people know that Lembaga Getah staff holding and bringing big amount of cash, the staff been robbed. Then, they changed the system which the Lembaga Getah only come to kampong to collect rubber but rubber tappers have to come to Lembaga Getah’s office to collect their own money.

Now, even though rubber tappers come themselves to Lembaga Getah’s office, there is no payment for them. Just imagine those kampong people who lodge their pick-up truck, few hours journey to town and no payment for them. Where is their objective which saying that to help farmer or kampong people in rural area?

Pay them please.. Otherwise, take out the tyres of your car.

KAN KUN KAAP

2010-03-24T12:35:00.002+08:00

Kon kun kaap.. A cup, B cup, C cup, D cup..

Captured this photo from bus this morning.

:)) It's nothing, I just feel surprise that there is Thai signboard in Sabah. I thought that Sabah only take workers from Bangla, Indonesia & Philipine but this sign telling that there are Thai workers for construction in Sabah too. ;)

WHAT HAD HAPPEN NOW ADAYS

2010-03-23T12:08:00.003+08:00

The purpose of this entry is just to let my readers know and be extra careful.

This happened to one of my x-collegue @ friend and just share the story here with you.

Last two weeks, the said friend went to ATM machine on a Saturday evening to withdraw money. What was happened, he unable to withdraw any and when he checked his balance of money in his account, it's only RM2 left. He was blured and thorny, where did his money gone?

The next Monday, he went to the head office of the bank to find out and settled his problem. Know what's the answer he get? The bank can't detect where and which account the money had gone, the only thing they can detect is a transaction code which the money been transfered to oversea via online banking. My friend never applied and used any online banking. The conclusion, his money is gone and he can't get back any of his money.

My thought:

1. As my knowledge, transaction to oversea ONLY CAN BE DONE AT THE COUNTER by the account owner himself and not online banking which without owner's signature.

2. Something fishy and lie. This things only can happen and been done by the bank staff themselve. My friend had said that he has never applied and used online banking. Why there is suddenly an online transaction?

3. We had advised that friend to report police but I'm not sure and don't know why he doesn't want to.

4. Even bank is insecure and can't be trust now! What should we do? Put our money under the pillow or burried at the back of our house?

I hate to know this kind of case which we are hard to fight. Pity my friend, salary been banked in to that account and now it's all gone.

BOOKSHOP IS JUST NEAR BY

2010-03-19T11:19:00.010+08:00

When I just started working here, my x-collegues told me that I'm going to spend more money soon coz of my office location will be just on the top of a shopping mall. Oh yeah I was worry too. When I started working in my new place, 1st few months was not as same as what they and I expected. I became more budget and saving, may be because of I'm bored to see the things selling in the mall everyday + thank god, all my current collegues are those who don't shop much. Well, most of them are quite veterant, they only spend for their house hold and no one influence me to shop miscelleneous things here. xoxo.. That is a good thing for me somehow..

I don't know, may be this is because of my new hobby? I'm not sure and I don't think this is my hobby. I just feel really bored and I want to work up my brain. Know what? I became a regular visitor to the book shops!

Oh gosh.. Do you know what's in my mind now? I just feel like to buy whole adult books in the book shop but, book isn't cheap! I'd promised to myself to read more books than last year and I think it's better to buy a good book rather than shop dresses and shoes. Yes I better cut down my shopping on fashion expenses.

Here are the books I bought yesterday.
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Content for the two front books are only quotation. Really meaningful and good quotation. It doesn't have direct words or sentence in it and this can make my brain working and think more. Just shared one quote I'd read last night,

'When you determine what you want, you have make an important decision in your life.'

Oh yes, I know what I want in my life, I'm chasing it now. I work on it and meaning to say I had made a decision for my life. hmmm..

Another book is introducing the speciality and knowledge about Tamu in Sabah. Look at inside the book, it's color printed and worth to buy!

I'm proud to be a Sabahan somehow I admit that I still don't know much thing about Sabah. The above book is talking about Tamu in Sabah. Some people might think that it's very common and nothing special about Tamu.

Actually that is the speciality about Sabah and Tamu is going to change and disappear soon because of the development. Can you see any interesting Tamu in the city? Gaya street example, anything special selling there? It's all selling mordern things and current Tamu outside the city is changing to sell mordern stuff from time to time too. The tradisional one going to disappear and been forgoten.
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The following photo are the books that I'd bought this month. >_<>

Just want to share one more interesting info from a book I'd read last few weeks. We know that current and ancient Chinese people eating noodles and rice with chopstick, but do you know that ancient Chinese people eating porridge with chopstick too? LOL. I can't imagine but it's true and I was surprise to know that too.

Now, read more books than last year so that we know more things. ;)

WHAT A MEN / WOMAN WANT?

2010-03-17T11:45:00.003+08:00

I get this info via email. It's based on research and informal interview. I think it's quite true.. Just have a look at it.

What Women Want in a Man

* A man who is confident.
* A man who loves her.
* A man who is romantic and does romantic things for her.
* A man who finds her attractive.
* A man who gives her security by making a commitment to her.
* A man who is a good provider for her and any children.
* A man who is ambitious.
* A man who has a career or is working towards one.
* A man who takes care of his health.
* A man who is an optimist.
* A man with a sense of humor
* A man who listens to her carefully for at least a few minutes every day.
* A man who respects her opinion.
* A man who she finds attractive.
* A man who dresses well and appropriate for most occasions.
* A man who keeps his body in shape.
* A man who has the same values and principles as her.
* A man who has the same vision for the future that she does.
* A man who can be loyal to her.
* A man who can be vulnerable but strong.
* A man who she can love forever!

Myths About What Women Want

* All women want a man who is tall, muscular, and handsome. Not true! A small percentage of women must have a man with these features. Most women are more attracted to self-confidence, ambition, and intelligence than a man’s appearance.

* All women want a man who is rich. Not true! A small percentage of women must have a man who is rich. The top priority of most women is to have a man who loves them. Wealth by its self is not much of an incentive for most women.

* All women want a man who is well endowed. Not true! A small percentage of women must have a man like this. What the majority of women want most is a man who knows how to make mad passionate love to her. This is what gives her true satisfaction.

* All women want a man with a full head of hair. Not true! There is a small percentage of women who don’t like bald or balding men. Some women like or even prefer bald men. Whether a man is bald or balding is not a top concern for most women. This is especially true if the man is not consumed by his hair loss and is generally comfortable in his own skin.

* All women want a man who will take them out every weekend and buy them a lot of stuff. Not true! A small percent of women must have a man who does these things. Most women do not expect to be taken out every weekend or showered with gifts. Women’s preferences for how they want to spend their weekends vary widely.

What Men Want in a Woman

* A woman who he finds attractive.
* A woman who finds him handsome.
* A woman who tries to look her best most of the time.
* A woman who monitors and controls her weight.
* A woman who has the same sexual needs as him.
* A woman who can be both reserved and uninhibited.
* A woman who can think for herself.
* A woman who includes reason & logic for decisions.
* A woman who respects him.
* A woman who shares his values and principles.
* A woman who shares many of his likes and dislikes.
* A woman who shares the same life goals as him.
* A woman who is honest and loyal to him.
* A woman who is interested in his passions.
* A woman who is supportive of his work and passions.
* A woman who does not use her period as an excuse.
* A woman who maintains a positive attitude.
* A woman who inspires him rather than bitching.
* A woman who spends money wisely.
* A woman who is unselfish.
* A woman who he can love forever!

Myths About What Men Want

* All men want a woman with large breasts. Not true. A small percentage of men must have a woman with big breasts. Most men like breasts of all shapes and sizes. Some men prefer small breasts.

* All men want a woman who looks like a model. Not true. A small percentage of men must have a woman who looks like a model. Men have specific tastes that include women of all different shapes, sizes, and looks. Generally, men place more importance on a woman being at or near her correct weight than how pretty or model-like her appearance is. There are exceptions to this however. A small percentage of men prefer full figured women.

* All men want a woman who dresses in short shirts and tight tops. Not true. A small percentage of men must have a woman who frequently wears short shirts. It’s true that most men like to see a woman in a dress or shirt every once in a while, but many men enjoy seeing her in a pair of nice fitting jeans just as well.

* All men want to have sex on the first date or at least by the third date. Not true. Most men will make several attempts to have sex, but it’s not an absolute necessity. Men try to have sex because of physical/sexual need and male pride. It’s as if it’s their duty as a man to try. Men are often relieved when a women says no because the pressure is off to demonstrate their masculinity. They are also frequently intrigued when a woman says no! Their first instinct is that they have found a quality woman. If a woman gives in too quickly, she’s lost the opportunity to gain respect. Her ability to be loyal may come into question as well.

* All men will not give a woman what she wants unless she’s a bitch! Not true! A woman who is a bitch will eventually get her man to build her a house. But a woman who is a princess will inspire her man to build her a castle!

What kind of my man I like, is really as stated in the above. I'm glad that my bf more and less has those criteria. ;) but of course, not 'so secure' coz most of ladies would love these kind of guy. xoxo..

I'M OLD

2010-03-15T12:48:00.005+08:00

How old am I?
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This question arise in my mind lot of time this recently. I forgoten my age for the most of my time and now I'm trying to remind and warn myself. Realize that I'm not young anymore but I believe that I'm still young. LOL.. Yeah I have nothing yet with my age now except my career, but I suppose to achieved more things at this age. I just feel like I'm still at the age of early 20'. Somehow..

Caution: do not laugh at me on this. Only me myself allowed to laugh at myself.

1. I've just registered on SPR to become a Malaysian voter YESTERDAY. LOL.. Ok I know I'm old enough now and suppose to register and went election since looooong time ago. To date, I'd missed out two (2) election in Malaysia. I'd registered now but to be frank, I don't know how to vote! LOL.. Next, I'm going to ask my dad how to vote.

2. I received a phone call from my bro last night and he have given me a very sharp advice.

"You are not young anymore. If you are thinking to have commitment by enggage and marry, then don't wait too long. It's right time now and try to become a mother before your age of 30. No matter how strong and healthy you are, having 1st baby after age 30 is very risky and tiring."

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LOL. Ok thanks bro for the advice, respect, concern, understanding and support. You are a cool bro and seems like you all have smelled something on me. I'm really proud and feel touched on all of you. It just that what bro said is really made me think again, how old am I now?

EMO..

2010-03-11T17:26:00.006+08:00

Life is full with up and down. No body has no problem. Older 1 will stay calm and younger 1 normally will always complaint and speak out their problem. Some say, tiger year is just not a good year for them. I've no comment on that, it's just March now and still a long way to end the year. Facebook is so popular now adays and people tent and love to post what they feel through the shout out. I'm nearly posted something in the facebook too but I'm secretive enough. + I saw more and more people spit out their problem, made me just feel like I don't need to do that way & I'm lucky enough. Yes I know and realize that I'm luckier than most of people but things is just not on my side this recently. Strategy and arrangement for few things are messy and incorrect. No one knows what had happen to me and only my heart is crying. I'm not going to tell what is happening anyway. Question marks is full in my mind. I'm tired to get worry and sad, and just wanna stop thinking about anything. My life will totally change very soon and I'm not sure either it will be better or worse. Am I ready for the changes? I don't think so.

Other than bad news, of course I've heard good news from some friends too. Few of my friends just met their new mate, someone is just dating with a Canadian guy and I just knew that my x-boss has get enggaged. I'm happy to hear that and congrats to them.

Well, I know this post is a bit emo. Purpose of this post has nothing but just hoping that god bless and protect everyone. 95% is effort and 5% is luck. I only help for the 5% invisible-ly, now go work hard for the 95 more percent.

God Bless Everyone..

IT'S BEAUTIFUL DAY

2010-03-10T15:44:00.003+08:00

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: “I’m blind, please help.” There were few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked. “Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?”

The man said, “I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way.”

I wrote: “Today is a beautiful day but I cannot see it.”

Both sign told peple that the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people that they were so lucky that they were not blind.

Moral of the story: Be thankful for what you have. Enjoy your day with a heart of gratitude.

THIS IS 'FAIR'

2010-03-06T11:35:00.006+08:00

I bought a magazine last few days, and found that the magazine offer the previous publication by selling it with a cheaper price. Oh yeah I'm interested to have the previous publication I think, just fill in the form, name, address, pay by using bank draft or money order, then the company will sent the magazine to our mailing address. But I was surprise to see this..

Everything, I repeat. EVERYTHING in Sabah is more expensive than Peninsular. Why? As always been told, it's because of the price for 'everything' in Sabah has included the transportation fee. hmm.. Now, from the above schedule I'd captured from the said magazine, PRICE OF THE BOOK are DIFFERENT, and then it plus DIFFERENT DELIVERY CHARGES! What the hell?! I can accept and understand the delivery charge, Sabah is farer but why the original price for the magazine still have differences? It should be same price as Peninsular because delivery been charged differently!

I'm not going to order then. I just really feel like to complaint this to the related authority. This is so unfair and poor Sabah & Sarawak been taken advantage like this. *&^%$#@!!

WORKING HARD

2010-03-03T16:06:00.003+08:00

This photo not taken by me, I'd copied it from fb. Somehow, just share it with you here.

This guy is a porter at Mount Kinabalu. He and few of the group members doing this job since long time ago. They bring thing such as this big and heavy tank from flat land to the middle top of the mountain everyday; while normal people climb the mountain once, come back home flat on the bed and can't walk for almost one week. We've been so pampered.

I actually feel touch with this guy and this photo. Just look at people like them, they are so hardworking and look for money in very right way. Seems like no "tired" or "hardship" word in their dictionary. They are loyal and willing to work under this condition of job for a very long time. Of course we don't know how much they'd been paid with this kind of job, may be high salary we don't know but.. I just don't know how to explain.. I just can say that most of us had been pampered and made us has a bad habit where we want everything in comfort.

Gosh I just feel like I really want to help this kind of people. They work so hard.

JOBLESS?

2010-02-26T21:04:00.000+08:00

First of all, I admit that I didn't read news paper for almost 1 month, and I was outdated with lots of latest news til yesterday, I read an article in news paper regarding this.

I'd copied this photo from Daily Express online and for more detail, do read this news in the online news paper. It talks about Sabahans went to KL for work but at the end they have jobless, homeless and only depends on free meal from church or non-governmental organization, and look for any edible left over food from rubish bin at night, usually KFC. It has been for few years.

My opinion:

1. Pity them, some of them been cheated by job recruitment agent. Once they reach peninsular and been cheated, they have no job as per promised and no money to buy ticket back to Sabah.

2. Most of young people in Sabah (I admit I have the same feeling before I went to KL last time), only love to have fun or little bad description as "Minta Puji". Proud and wanted to experience travelling by flight and wanted to live in a big city like KL so that when they come back, there is something they can proud and brag to but actually they don't know and never expected the real life in KL is suck.

3. They never contacted any of their family members in Sabah asking for help? None of family or relative can help them even since past few years?

4. Homeless, I understand and I can accept. Renting a room in city is very expensive but when they said jobless for few years, I can't accept it! Bikin malu saja! You can work if you are not handicapped and not sick! Any work! Lots of work doesn't need high qualification and experience at all. Cashier, waitress, promoter, garderner, working in factory ect. It's only 1 thing, DISCIPLINE. Can't find a single work? Unbelievable.

5. As what Datuk Masidi Manjun express in today's paper, Sabah has a lot of vacancies. He is true. And actually working in a farm and palm oil Plantation outside the city been paid 'ok' salary for those non-higher educated people. Even some farm workers, their monthly salary is only 3 digit but they get 4 digit for their bonus every 7 months. The 4 digit bonus can reach til 8 times of their monthly salary. This is true.

I was looking a new job for the whole last year, I had applied more than 20 companies within 1 year and few had called me for interview, some negotiated the salary with me, some I didn't get through, some I didn't accept and so on. No vacancy in Sabah? Liar. I have lots of friends who complaining their current job, I'd advised them to seek other job and just applied it. They'd answered me "MALAS." OK then. Is the position is really important? For me no. It's only an image. I'm ok with a lower position as long as been paid high salary and I can work happily.

And,

My current company looked for new staff and it preferably for local Sabahan. Vacancies been advertised in news paper but..

Disapointed. I myself disapointed. Seems like people in Sabah especially younger generation don't buy and read news paper. Exactly. We only received few resume and non of it was suitable. OK fine at least those people had tried to applied but where was those talented Sabahans go? Are they currently working in KL? At the end, our company recruited people from Peninsular, placed in Kota Kinabalu office with daaaamn high salary. It's not the company didn't give the opportunity to local people, but it seems like no one seeking a job.

Outdated quote: don't judge a book by its cover. Look and hear beautiful but actually it's not. Living in a city looks good but things that I don't like are the security, stressful and high living expenses. No matter how big your salary is, you will never be rich.